My Mafia Mommy. (discontinued)

9. Nighmare

⚠️panic attack⚠️

Rose's POV

'Useless bitch, cant do anything right'

'I don't know why I bought you. Your a waste of money'

She hit me over and over making me bleed and scars appear all over my back.

Pushing me, screaming, kicking, the names.

I sat up quickly with tears already filling my eyes and my hands shaking. I looked over and seen mommy still sleeping. I didn't want to wake her up but I know I needed her comfort.

Everytime I woke up my ex-caregiver for having a nightmare she would kick me out her room and make me sleep in the cold room that used to be my own.

She took away all my toys and stuffed animals because she thought I didn't deserve them.

I slowly got out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom. I locked the door after entering and sat in the corner, letting the tears fall. It was still so dark out and that made it worse.

I knew I was loud with crying because I heard someone knock on the door, and someone said, "are you alright, sweetie?" In a thick british accent.

I believe that was the butler in our house. I learned his name was Harry not too long ago. I didn't wanna talk to anyone right now so I said "go 'way" in a babyish voice.

The nightmare made me slightly slip out of little space but I wasn't a complete big girl. Just in the middle between being little and big.

I heard his footsteps get quieter so I knew he walked away. I let out a breath, glad that he didn't push me to talk.

I stayed in there for a few more minutes before I heard footsteps approaching the door again.

"Go 'way Hawwy! I wan be awone!" (Go away harry! I want to be alone.) I slightly yelled getting frustrated and I didn't want to wake mommy so I didn't yell too loud.

"Sweetheart? Can you unlock the door for me?" I heard a familiar, soft voice speak. I knew I woke mommy up and that only made me even more scared.

My panic attack started to get more intense. I felt as if the room was closing down on me and as if I was under water, my lungs begging to get air.

But I couldn't breathe. I couldn't calm down as more tears fell down my cheeks. My heart was beating so fast it felt as if it was to pop out my chest any moment.

My hands were shaking and sweating more and more as my attack kept rising. My gasps for air got louder the more I tried to breathe.

My vision got blurry and I thought I was gonna pass out, but I soon felt arms around me. I tried to escape the person's embrace but they only got tighter around me.

My attack still happening, my hands still shaking, my heart pounding, my weak attempts for air, and yet I was still able to look up and see Mommy.

It took me a second to realize she was speaking. "Alright babygirl, Mommy is right here. Breathe for me baby. Follow my breathing."

My gasps started to quiet down the more I focused on breathing. My hands still shaking, but not as much as before. My heart starting to slow down.

I managed to look up at Mommy; tears still in my eyes so my sight was quite a bit blurry. She cooed at me with a sad smile and wiped my tears away.

My breathing was still a little shaky and my gasps turned into soft whimpers. My throat was dry and sore, my hands were red, along with my cheeks, nose, and eyes, my hands did manage to stop shaking.

I didn't want to speak so I just snuggled into her hoping she would get the hint. I suppose she did because she shifted me to where my head was rested in the crook of her neck.

She kept shushing me, hoping to calm me down and it did. I started to get sleepy again so I whined into her neck and she ran one hand up and down my back while her other hand patted my head, soothing me even more.

She did this for a while before I got too tired to even keep my eyes open so I stopped fighting to stay awake, and just fell asleep. I hope I don't have another nighmare.

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I appreciate you being patient with me and I apologize that this is short but it is something for now. I love you my babies