Dear Bob

chapter 1

His red flaky hair, his big masculine chest....his pink lips...oooh God not to mention his brown eyes were breath smacking .Jason reminded me of bob, my mystery boyfriend...we met on tinder but we were a little different you see, Bob was a popular guy in his oakland high ..he used to play soccer In fact he was the captain of Oakland bulldogs at his school . Girls like Cheryl Blossoms and Lilie Andrson from the "oakdivas" the most popular cheerleading squad in my school adored Guys like Bob... saying adored would be an understatement..they worshipped Bob and all the other bulldogs ....I ,on the other hand, was good at biology ...I liked science and everything associated with science I hated football , I hated the oakdivas ...well maybe coz they were a bunch of curvy, girls with cute teeth and nice-looking boobs...huh! Something I didn't have...Sam from ninth grade used to Bully me and Called me flatty catie ,just because I didn't have big boobies and nice curves like Cheryl and her friends from the oakdivas....Bob used to avoid me every time I would go to watch him during his soccer sessions...at first, It didn't bother me... because at night he would sneak into my room through my bedroom fanlight window and we would cuddle , eat some popsicles and make love " He is all mine ... he's just busy" I thought to myself..but this particular Friday evening before prom night Bob brock my heart...I was shattered and confused ...he told me that we needed to keep whatever we had a secret... that I was too much going to his game practices .

I embarrassed him....Bob was embarrassed by me just because I wasn't curvy like Cheryl ...That night was very long...wild thoughts were running through my mind I felt so violated and used.

Now..looking at Jason play soccer ... is like deja vu to me he looks so much like bob ...
I hope he doesn't leave me again...I mean.. yeah I've changed . I'm a lot better than last year but maybe girls like Cheryl might make him change his mind .

"Hey babe" Jason snaps me out of my thoughts....and gives kisses me on my forehead...come to think of it at some point, he's so much different from Bob, just aside from the fact that he had pink lips , a masculine body and plays soccer....oh! And just before I forget he's also the Tiger's captain..so much like Bob but his character is way too different the way he treats me is on another whole new level

Jason is a funny guy.. he's so honest..he likes biology..one thing we have in common..I think at least this year I have a chance to be in an open relationship where I'm loved and respected by my partner... Yesterday he asked me if I could be his date to the prom and I said yes...I mean, yeah it was de javu but sweetly..I am going to wear the black silk dress that my mum had bought me for my nana's burial it was actually a perfect fit" I thought to myself excitedly...I was thrilled and excited....

The day before prom..Jason and I fought...it was intense and just like that we broke up....I soaked my pillow wet with tears...it did not bother me that I would have eye bags and sore eyes the next day, which was the actual day of prom....my second prom..without a date...I felt so alone and I could not call Lina...my best friend to tell her how depressed and shattered I was because she had warned me about Jason....she despised him...she said that he was pretty much the same as Bob " They have a lot of dissimilares" she said...with a smack on her face...she had warned me precisely about all that but I was in love I just could not listen to her...it happened all over again and it left me hurt... Confused ...
In tear...with sore eyes....I swore on my nana's grave that I would never fall in love again... I was shuttered