He's out with friends, on tour,or partying all the time and here I am sitting at home doing nothing but cleaning, cooking, and watching netflix. I miss the old days when we would just sit at home together talking about our future togther, i never thought it would turn into this. Countless nights without him here, not even getting a message to know that hes okay. It really worries me but I know if I say anything he'll just tell me that im clingy. I want him to have fun with hs friends but i need atteention too.
Speaking of him, hes finally home. I look like shit but I don't care, he's probably just getting money to go out again. I'm in shorts, one of his hoodies, and I have my hair up in a messy bun, my eyes are also red from crying so much.
"Y/N,where are you?"
"In our room Nate."
I hear footsteps coming upstairs and then the door opens, there he is. This is the first time I've seen him in about 3 days. I'm not mad, im just sad. I'm glad he's living the life he's always wanted, i just wish he had atleast a little bit of time for me. Right now he was just starring at me.
"Hey Nate, did you have a good night?" I'm trying to make it seem like I'm fine even though I'm not. He looks a little confued.
"Have you been crying, Y/N?"
My eyes started to water at the thought of all those nights i didnt sleep, the amount of times I've cried in such a short amount of time. Tears are streaming down my face and i dont try to stop them, its too late.
"I just miss seeing you Nate, I miss your body being next to mine when i wake up in the morning, I miss cooking for you, I dont want to bring you down because I know this is how you want your life to be and i support that 100% but Nate babe I'm still here and I do need attention sometimes."
He looked shocked, and yet mad at the same time. I'm kinda scared for his response, maybe I should just leave. All im doing is bringing him down and he doesnt need that. He still hasnt said anyting hes just been staring at me.
"It's okay Nate i understand, I'll leave so you can live your dream. I love you and I'm going to miss you but I hope you really have an amazing time with the boys."
I got up to start packing my bags but then i felt Nate wrap his arm around my waste and spin me around so that my face was by his chest and he hugged me tightly. I didnt hesitate to hug him back.
"Babygirl im so sorry, I should have never left you alone all those times. The boys are nothing comapred to you. I'm not living my dream, my dream is to get married to you and have kids with you and for us to grow old together. Please dont leave me baby, I love you so much and im so sorry i did that to you. I promise I wont do it anymore."
"I'm not going to leave Nate, I love you too much. It's okay that you did that, just promise me you wont do it again because I never want us to be over.'
"I promise baby, I love you so much."
