~Your POV~
"I can't believe you did this to me again." I cried to my husband Jaejoong, who was taking my hits to his chest. I found out he cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend again, he grabbed my wrists lightly.
"Stop it babe, I'm sorry. I know I fucked up again, please calm down. You're going to get yourself sick." He said to me, I kept on crying and yanked my wrists out of his grip. I sat down on the wooden floor and covered my face with my hands.
"I hate you, I hate you so much Jae. Why do this to me again? When we have kids now." I said to him.
"You don't hate me, don't bring up the kids; they're asleep right now." He said to me so calmly.
"Why are you so fucking calm?" I asked him.
"Cause I don't want to argue with you about this, yes I fucked up and I admit that; but I slept with her once babe. She's just trying to start shit, remember she tried it before." He said to me, it was true; his ex-girlfriend who he cheated on me with in the past tried to destroy our relationship when we were in our second year of dating, we dated for 4 years and been married for 3 years. We have a daughter, who is 4 years old and a son who is 4 months old. He admitted to me he slept with her for a week, even one of her friends told me; but still, it hurts. I've been cheated on by another boyfriend in the past.
"It doesn't fucking matter Jae, you know about my trust issues." I reminded him, he leaned on the kitchen counter.
"I know, I know (Y/N). You don't have to remind me and I know I fucked up, you have every right to be upset; but please baby, I won't want to talk about this right now. Come on, let's go to bed." He said to me, he walked over to me and grabbed my hands. I yanked them out of his grip, he let out a breath. "Are you really going to act like this?" He asked me, I didn't respond. "Fine." He said and picked me up bridal style, I didn't move; I'm just upset and tired. I don't have the strength right now.
He put me on our bed, I laid my head down on my pillow. Tears still leaving my eyes, he made me look at him. "I love you, you know that." He said to me, he leaned in to kiss me; but I turned my head away from him. He let out a breath and grabbed his night clothes, he went to take a shower. I do love Jaejoong more than anything, he owned up when he first cheated; I didn't speak to him for a month. He did text me today that he had something to tell me, I guess she beat him to the punch when she messaged me.
I heard crying, I looked at the baby monitor; my son woke up. I got up and went in the kitchen, I got his bottle and went to his room. I picked him up and started feeding him in his rocking chair, after I got done feeding him; I burped him then I changed his diaper, then I rocked him back to sleep before I can go back to my room. My daughter stepped out of her room, "Mommy." She said.
"Yes Yujin." I said to her.
"Can I have some milk please?" She asked.
"Yes, come on baby." I said to her, I put Joon's bottle in the sink and got Yujin some milk in her cup.
"Thank you." She said to me, we both sat down on the couch. "Mommy." She said.
"Yes?" I said to her.
"Why do your eyes look red?" She asked.
"Mommy is very upset right now." I said to her.
"Why?" She asked.
