A New Flame

Sorrows

Ugh.

I woke up with the sun blazing right in my face.

What the hell? Is it morning already?

I checked the clock beside my bed table and it read 10 AM. I mentally prepared myself to get up for 10 more seconds and got up. The sun seemed more brighter than usual.

Probably because I was drinking last night. But that's not the point.

I stretched and looked around at my surroundings. It took me a minute to realize Elijah was already out of bed. I went into the living room to see him in nothing but shorts making coffee.

"Make me a cup, will you?" I said to him sitting down in the kitchen table.

"Anything for you, my love." He replied back and grabbed another cup for me.

"The sun seems to be brighter than usual these days." I say squinting from the sun, yet again. Elijah smirked and sat down with me at the kitchen table with both of our coffees.

"Maybe it's because you're hungover." He suggested. I rolled my eyes and let a small smile show to him.

Damn did he look good. I thought to myself.

The sun was shining at Elijah too really showing off his abs. He worked out everyday and it sure did pay off for him in the end. His skin looked like rich chocolate the way it glistened under the light. His hair was a little messy and less coily from last night due to last night's activities. God, I could stare at him all day if I could.

"Wouldn't wanna hang around longer for round 2, would you?", I hinted at him and have him the best puppy eyes look I could.

He laughed and said to me, "I wish I could babe, but I've gotta hit the gym and go to work."

"Who needs the gym when we could be working out in the bed room?" I rolled my eyes and he laughed again. He put back on his shirt from last night and got the rest of his things.

"Last night was good." He said to me as I walked him to the door. I have a shy smile.

"Isn't every night we do, always good?" I said sarcastically, trying to sound hurt.

"Of course it is. You never fail me." Elijah gave me a quick peck. "Text me, yeah?"

"Yeah, see you soon." I said and closed the door.

It's something about Elijah Rivers that drives me crazy about him.

Me and Elijah have been friends with benefits for a year now. It was the same thing, text whenever we we were "in the mood" and one of us was were always on the way shortly after. It was simple and it was all that I ever needed to fulfill me. Well, up until recently.

I've started to grow feelings when getting with Elijah. I know what you're thinking, 'That's the dumbest thing to ever do when you do friends with benefits with someone!" and you're not wrong. And to make things worse, he gives me the most confusing signs ever.

One week, he showers me with kisses and tells me there's no one else but me for him. Next week, he's telling me that we're such good friends and nothing can ruin our "bond". One time he even told me he loved me more than a friend, and the next day he acted as if he never said that in his life. I was confused as hell. But I was more scared than confused of it all because if I asked him what we are, I already knew the answer and secretly, it would crush me.

So here I am, on a rollercoaster of emotions with Elijah all because I'm scared to lose him as a whole. But I also know if I don't tell him soon how I feel, he'll find someone new. And that scares me just as much.