Normal// skephalo fanfic

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Skeppy I"-

"I know... IM FUCKED UP OK?!" He said with tears streaming down his face. Ashamed he tried to hide is face with his hands.

"No, Skeppy that's not what I meant, I'm sorry I'm just shocked.." I said sincerely

"Your not messed up. Listen..listen Skeppy," I said taking his hand and rubbing little circles on his palm.

I felt his tears drop on me. I hated the feeling. I hated how he was sobbing. I hate it he didn't deserve this.

"Skeppy I'm going to help you get through this..ok? I know what it feels like. I know how much damage it can do.. I know it's hard but I know you can fight, I know you can do it! You helped me I'm going to help you. Whatever it takes! I know you'd do the exact same for me."

Skeppy stopped and looked at me with more tears threatening to drip down his face.
"I don't know if I can Bad it's..it's h.hard!"

He started to cry again. My heart broke.

I rubbed his back humming a toon that he used to say was his favorite song. Attempting to calm him down. It worked but It took a while until he was with his normal pace of breathing. I looked at him. His eyes were closed his nose was red and under his eyes his tan skin was puffy.

"Skeppy I know your tired but let me treat your cuts, ok?"

He looked at me drained from his crying.
But still nodded his head half asleep.

I took one of his hands and held it with my hand. I took some of the disinfectants
(non-sting) and put some on a cloth I rubbed it on his newer cuts. He flinched, "sorry muffin" I whispered.

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I got done cleaning both of his arms and wrists from dry blood and checked to make sure none of cuts were affected. Which thankfully none of them were. I bandaged them after debating if I should give him a clean hoodie since this one had dry blood inside it. I decided not to just in case I accidentally woke him up.

I carefully took him into my arms and carried him into his bedroom. I tucked him in.

I went back into the main room and decided to just watch TV since I wasn't in the mood to look at Twitter nor talk to Any of my friends.

I just wanted skeppy to be alright...

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I opened my eyes looking down at him he was looked to be asleep. I rested my head on the wall humming to myself. I didn't want to move because that would cause him to wake up most likely.

What caused this..? Did somebody hurt him? Was he always like this and I never noticed?
Why did I not see the signs?.. I should have known.

It's ok I'm here for him now I'm his best friend he's my best friend. I'll help him... I won't let him go through life like this alone he'll have me.

I realized I have to stream it was Saturday.
I got up slowly trying not to wake him up. I stood up and walked into my room walking towards my PC turning it on and taking a seat in my chair.

I got everything set up and started to stream.
The donations started to readout. I answered them each trying not to miss any. I told the stream that this was going to be a short stream because I had some stuff to attend to.

4:56
"Oh my God time passes fast muffins! Alright Imma going to end the stream here! Hope you had fun watching! Oh, look sapnaps streaming go join his stream, Byeee!!!!" I said clicking the end stream button. Not such a short stream after all I said stretching my arms.

I got up from my chair and decided to make dinner early. I looked and saw zak in the living room on his phone looking at Twitter. He looked at me and gave me a small smile of greeting. I smiled back walking towards the kitchen. I started to take some things out to make some soup and garlic bread.

In the meantime when everything was on the stove. I had a chance to try to talk to Skeppy about what caused the panic attack earlier today. But I didn't want to push him into saying something he's not comfortable telling me. Although I needed to at least try and ask him.

I walked over to him, he noticed me and looked up at me with a small smile. But I could tell it was a fake smile.

"Skeppy you don't have to smile all the time, it's ok not to smile sometimes..."

He looked back down not knowing what to say.

I sat down next to him and pulled him closer to me. I put my arm around him and asked: " you don't have to tell me muffin, but do you know what caused the panic attack?"

He kept his eyes locked onto the floor and looked nervous and anxious. He took me by surprise and looked me straight in the eyes. But he quickly reverted his eyes to the floor again.

"It's ok muffin you don't have to tell me if you're uncomfortable," I said softly to him.

I heard a short beep sound come from the stove. "That's the stove, the foods ready!" I said trying to get him back into a good mood. I walked back to the kitchen to put the newly made food on plates and carried the food over to him.

I took a seat next to him and handed him the plate of food. "You don't have to finish the food, but try to have some ok?" I said to him.
He nodded in response. I began eating, I looked at his plate and realize he didn't eat any of his food yet when I already finished over half of mine.

"Listen muffin I know it's hard to eat sometimes, but you need to eat, you haven't eaten properly in months probably."

"It's hard!" he blurted out I'm not even hungry! tears began to fall for the 2nd time today. "I know...I know" I said looking at him sadly. "I'm going to bed he mumbled." Standing up and disappearing into his room."

I sighed, "Skeppy please come out!"
He didn't respond, but I wasn't going to let him go to bed with no food in his stomach. As harsh as it sounded. He needs to eat.. at least a little.
But before I could get up and go to his room
Something tapped my shoulder...

POV Skeppy

I went into my bedroom. But soon I realize how mean I was, he made food for me! And tried so hard to make me eat it. I need to try and recover not let him do all the work and help me when I'm not helping myself in the beginning. I decided to try again hoping he would forgive me For being so rude.

I went over to him and tapped his shoulder.
He looked at me with surprise and there was another feeling in his eyes... I couldn't put a finger on what it was though.

" I want to try again, I'm sorry."

He smiled and motioned me to sit down again. He pulled me close to him. I loved it when I was in his arms. I don't know why but it was comforting. He played with a strain of my hair. We stayed in the same position for a bit. It wasn't awkward or weird. It was nice.

but I shook the feeling off. I pulled away from him putting the plate of food in my lap.
I took a bite.. then another one. What felt like forever. I looked down at my plate and saw there was still half of the food left. I placed the plate in the floor not wanting anymore.

"You did great muffin im so proud of you for trying! I know it's hard." He said gleaming looking proud of me. "

"..t..thanks bad ." I said shyly.

I took my phone out of my pocket and glanced at the time. [12:26 pm ] . I yawned putting my hand over my mouth. " Can I sleep here?" I mumbled. "Of course you can!" He replied smiling. I awkwardly scooted closer to him. He noticed and put his arms around me hugging me. A genuine smile crept into my face. I ended up falling asleep on him..

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