Torn Between Two

-°~Chapter 10~°-

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No one's POV:

Katsuki didn't know why. He didn't know how he could even think doing those things were okay. He never did know but he knew he regrets it more than anything.

The past, the memories, the horrible things he wished he could take back but can't because you simply can't change the past, but not only that he has yet to truly make it up to him.

To the person he hurt more then any one, the person who stood by his side even when every thing turned against him, when Katsuki himself turned against him.

He wishes he never did because soon enough his mother was dead, then he went missing, and then presumed dead not even a week later which was a load of bullshit.

Though now he was laying in his bed years later crying about it. He had a nightmare about how his childhood friend now crush who he's working to win the heart of jumped off their middle school roof. He's had this nightmare so many times but it never failed to make him cry.

Soon enough he reached for his phone, he knew Izuku would be up at this hour seeing as he slept through the day. He quickly looked for his contact before pushing the call button.
He needed to know he was alive.
he needed to see him alive.
he needed to hear his heart beat. he needed him here.

The phone rang, it kept ringing, it felt like an eternity before he reached his voicemail. With a heart breaking sob he called again waiting it out once again. His mind was going crazy and even though he rationally knew Izuku was okay, he just needed to see him to confirm it, and he needed it now.

"Hello?"

Finally he heard the voice he needed to hear, he finally had Izuku on the phone, now he just needs him here.

"T-Ted *Hic* teddy bear?" Katsuki asked with a sob.

"Woah Katsuki you okay? Are you hurt? Are you kidnapped? Did king die?" Izuku asked in a panicked voice.

"C-Can you come o-over? Please? I- *hic* I need you here..." Katsuki begged.

"Yeah, I'll be there in a minute!" Izuku said before handing up.

Katsuki put his phone back on his side table before he curled into himself. He continued to cry, not bothering to hold anything in, he just wanted Izuku by his side right now. Nothing more, nothing less.

Soon enough he felt a presence in his room, he knew who it was but he couldn't call out. Seconds later he was beside him holding him from behind.

"You wanna talk about it..?" Izuku asked quietly.

Quickly Katsuki turned in Izuku's arms and wrapped his own arms around him, keeping him close so he could hear him breathe, hear his heart beat - just know he's there, know he's alive.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." Katsuki quietly said almost automatically, like he had just been waiting for the perfect time to say it.

"Sorry? Sorry for what? Being an idiot? becouse if that's it-" Izuku started just trying to add some humour in to the sad shit, because god knows he's had to much, though it didn't work.

"No.. no I-I'm sorry... I'm sorry for- *hic* for what I did when w-we were kids... *Hic* I was terrible a-and what I said in m-middle school was o-out of line... I'm s-so sorry," Katsuki said as more heart breaking sobs and tears started to come out.

"Oh... I forgot about that... Honestly haven't had time to think about it, but Katsuki it's fine-" Izuku started but was cut off once again.

"IT WASN'T OKAY!!!" Katsuki yelled out of anger. "WHAT I DID WAS HORRIBLE A-AND IT SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN HAPPENED! WHY ARE YOU FORGIVING ME?!?" he yelled out before another loud sob escaped his mouth.

Izuku gave a sigh before sitting up, while Katsuki still held a firm hold on his stomach while his face rested in his lap, Izuku took a deep breath before speaking.

"Look Katsuki, I won't say what you did was okay because it wasn't. I can't say I wasn't hurt from the things that happened back then, because I was. I can't say that there weren't long lasting effects that I may never get rid off, because there are and I probably won't even get rid of them," He started which made another sob escape from Katsuki "But I forgive you... I did a long time ago. As much as an ass you were and how much you hurt me, you're still my first friend, my childhood friend, and I wouldn't give you up for anything," Izuku said with a gentle smile as he started to rake his fingers through Katsuki's hair.

He couldn't say he wasn't upset, becouse he was upset at the fact that there were long lasting effects from all the bullying, but Izuku forgave him, he still wanted Katsuki in his life, which seemed to drastically help his mood.

"*Sniff* you forgive too easily teddy bear..." Katsuki huffed before he sniffled once again.

"I do not, I've just already forgiven you.. I forgave you a long time ago, so there's no point in lying," Izuku said with an eye roll at the end.

"I guess you're right..." Katsuki mumbled.

It was quiet after that, they both just basked in each other's warmth injoying the silence that was brought with it, Izuku was thinking about how Katsuki's hair is so soft even though it's so damn spikey, while Katsuki was thinking of how lucky he truly was to have Izuku in his life, and the fact that he had his forgiveness even though he probably shouldn't have it.

It was nice to know Izuku cared...

"Hey teddy bear..?" Katsuki quietly called to the greenette playing with his hair.

"Yes Katsuki?" Izuku asked.

"Can... Can you stay? Just for tonight?" Katsuki asked, he really didn't want Izuku to leave, especially since he had just learned he was forgiven for his actions, he wanted him to stay while he bathed in that.

"Hmm... I guess, but you have to make me katsudon you over grown blonde porcupine," Izuku said sternly.

With a chuckle of amusement Katsuki nodded. "Yeah okay I'll make you katsudon you bush looking head ass," he said as he forced Izuku down so he could lay on him and listen to his heartbeat (LISTEN TO MY HEART BEAT BEAT BEAT-).

Izuku let out of the cutest giggles before nodding. "Alright, fine. popcorn," he said with a playful eye roll.

And that's how they stayed for the rest of the night.