Speak Now

00. Does she look at you the way I do?

Thursday, February 17th

   His clammy hands rose to cup my face and I stared into his eyes, expressionless. I didn't let myself break down or melt in his hands. I held myself together and ignored the chills going down my spine. He didn't need me, I didn't need him.

"Lillian, look I'm sorry." Andrew told me, his mixture of blue and sparkling green eyes pleading at me. "I love you, but I've moved on. Eliza and me are getting more and more serious. This is just keeping her and me from moving on."

I felt my eyes get watery and bit my lip, "No! You can't do that to me Andrew. You have to be joking?" I replied, as I got onto my feet. I pushed his hands away and shook my head, my body beginning to shake. I felt the walls closing in on me, my heart being crushed. How could I be so foolish? I knew that what we had wasn't serious, I was just his rebound. I knew I was his second choice, I knew I was always going to be, but it still hurt any less. The pain was excrutiating.

      Andrew stared at me for a while as if I was losing it. I was losing it, but why wasn't he? Then I remembered he had Eliza to love. I took a deep breath and waited for his excuse this time.

" Lilli, you knew that this wasn't going to be serious. I'm sorry, but I have to go." He told me and walked away. I looked at the ground and wiped away the tears spilling out. Does she ever look at him the way I do?