The Nexus Event (Loki x reader)

The Nexus Event

A/N: lots of people wanted to see this turned into a series, so I'm making it into a book before I can chicken out or change my mind hehe -I'll try and get some more chapters uploaded soon but no promises. I'm going to re-watch the series to refresh my memory first<3 i hope you enjoy this:) 

p.s. this gif causes my heart shatter into a million tiny pieces and makes me want to curl up into a ball in a dark corner and cry for several weeks. it's fine.

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"The Tesseract or your brother's head. I assume you have a preference?"

In the second after Thanos speaks these words, your life changes forever.

What should transpire immediately after he speaks is this: you should mouth the word 'no', stepping forward towards Loki, who is stood before Thanos. Ebony Maw should discover your presence, bringing you before his master. Thanos should torture you, and then Loki should give him the Tesseract. You and Hulk should be sent by Heimdall to Midgard, to safety.

These events make up the Sacred Timeline. They should come to pass.

Instead, for a reason unbeknownst to anyone, you manage to keep your mouth shut. You don't step forward, ignoring your screaming instincts, remembering Loki's words.

Promise me you'll stay hidden. Even if things get bad.

So you stay hidden, and Ebony Maw doesn't see you. Your Nexus Event begins, and you're none the wiser.

"Oh I do. Kill away." Loki smiles.

You feel his turmoil as though it's your own, burning your insides; searing your heart as Thanos looks momentarily surprised. Then he lifts the gauntlet containing the Power stone to Thor's temple, whom he is easily holding aloft by the breastplate of his armour in his other hand.

The stone glows brightly as it meets flesh, and Thor screams hoarsely, his body convulsing violently. Tiny pricks of pain erupt across your palms; Loki is clenching his fists so hard that he must be drawing blood with his nails.

Your head and your heart engage in a furious internal battle. Your heart screams for Thor, for Loki, for the three of you to be together and safe, somewhere far from here. Your head tells you no, this has to happen. It's this or half of the universe.

Half of the universe.

You can almost see the same thought process running through Loki's head. His face, usually so emotionless, shut off to everyone except you, begins to change as his resolve wavers and then cracks.

His determination to stay emotionless, calm, unafraid before the Titan dissolves within seconds. You feel it as it shatters, falling away in an instant, leaving only fear.

"Alright, STOP!" Loki shouts, and your heart breaks along with his voice. Still you remain quiet, invisible, hidden.

Even if things get bad.

"We don't have the Tesseract. It was destroyed on Asgard." Thor tells Thanos, his voice cracking with the effort of speaking. Guilt, not yours, courses through you.

The Titan turns to look at Loki, and Loki lowers his gaze before holding up a hand and letting the Tesseract reveal itself in his palm.

You can feel your heartbeat in your throat, and have to remind yourself to breathe, fighting the urge to talk to Loki through your mind. He told you that one of Thanos' minions is a telepath. It's the one who keeps glancing in your direction, you're sure of it.

"Brother, no-" Thor starts, but Loki cuts across him, beginning to walk towards Thanos. Stop it, stop it, stop it¸ you think, but don't allow the thought to travel further than your own mind. It's torture.