mother by chance enemies by choice

this is our life now

this is our life now. this is how it is. there's no changing it. we've come to the point of no returns. there's no going back.

sure it hurts to know we will never have to relationship again. but you've hurt me too much. yes i love you. but yes, i hate you.

you may think i'm ignoring you and that your words don't affect me. but they do. and sometimes they really hurt. really. really hurt.

you say i'm 'ignoring you' and 'completely oblivious' to how you feel. but i know how you feel. i just choose to treat you how you treat me. for so many years i bit my tongue and chose to be the bigger person. but i'm not letting you walk all over me anymore. if i have something to say i will say it whether you like it or not.

i look at other people with their mums and i can't help but be jealous of them. they tell their mums everything and gossip together. they still hug their mum and get complimented by them. they count on their mum as their best friend.

i can't relate.

my friends are absolutely amazing and i don't know what id do without them. my boyfriend is wonderful and there for me. other people also support me all the time. but it's not the same. it's not the same as having your mum there. it doesn't fill that empty hole that mums should fill.

no ones hugs quite compare to yours. no ones.