I felt the warm water against my skin as I did nothing. I just laid there and looked at the swell in my stomach. The swell that I was proud to call my soon be baby. My beautiful baby girl.
Even though I couldn't see her, I already had a connection with her. Besides the fact that she is physically connected to me, but a connection that I still cannot understand.
Now don't get me wrong, even though I sound like I'm absolutely happy with my baby, I still have bad days. There are bad days when I throw up, my back hurts, I have heart burn, I feel extremely fatigue, my mood swings are rollercoasters that I wish I could get off. But worst of all, there are days when I question why I had the baby in the first place. Why I was stupid enough to not be safe. But in those moments, my boyfriend, Derek Hale, is always there to tell me it wasn't a mistake.
I was taken out of my thoughts when I saw Derek enter the room. He had gotten home from work so he had a black suit on.
He roughly threw off his jacket and threw it on the ground. He didn't know I was in here, but he went over to the sink and splashed cold water in his face, and dapped it with a nearby towel.
"Baby?" I said softly.
Derek snapped his head towards me and said in a rough voice,"God. Stiles you scared me."
I looked down at my stomach in embarrassment,"I'm sorry..."
Derek didn't say anything, so I asked "Are you okay?"
Derek walked over to me some loosening the cuffs on his wrists
"Does it look like I'm okay?" Derek shouted at me. I flinched in surprise.
I could also feel my baby girl moving around inside new, telling me she's not content.
Derek looked at me and scanned my naked body in the bath. He made a disgusted face as he said,"God, could you please put some clothes on?"
He then went into our bedroom, not saying another word.
I closed my eyes, forcing myself to stop crying. What he said really took a stab at my confidence.
With great struggle, I got out of the tub, dried myself off and put on my clothes.
When I went into my room, Derek was putting a tank top on. I went over to our closer and got an old book bag.
I went to my dresser and started stuffing clothes into it.
"What are doing?" Derek said an annoyed voice.
"I'm going to Scott's for the night. Look I don't know what the hell your problem is but I'm gonna give you some space to solve it yourself instead of being a burden of the night." I said waking into the bathroom to get my toothbrush.
Before I could get out, Derek was blocking the entrance so I was trapped.
"You're not going anywhere." Derek said sternly.
I rolled my eyes and barely pushed past him and made my way downstairs.
"Hey!"Derek shouted, following me as I was getting my keys.
I started to open the door but Derek slammed it shut and trapped me between him and the door.
"Let me go." I said in a serious voice.
"No. You're staying here tonight." Derek replied.
"Why? So you can look at me like I'm a disgusting creature? So you can yell at me all night? So you can blame me for everything? Well no, fuck you." I said. By the time I said that, tears were slowly running down my face, but I wasn't going to break. Not now.
"Is it me?" Derek asked looking into my eyes.
"What?" I asked confused.
"You're constantly doubting yourself and saying that you don't want the baby. Is it because of me? Is it because you don't want me to be the father?"
"It's not always about you Derek." I said rolling my eyes and turning around to try to open the door again.
I walked outside to get in my car as I heard Derek right behind me,"Then what is it then?" He shouted.
I quickly turned around which surprised him and made him stop in his tracks.
"It's me Derek! I don't know if I can be a parent yet. I don't know how to be a parent. I constantly doubt myself and say I'm gonna screw it up and be a horrible model for our baby girl. I can't mess this up. I just can't. I have mood swings, I have heart burn like crazy, I have constant back pain, I just- I don't want to mess this up..."
Derek slowly walked up to me until we were inches apart.
"You are gonna be the most amazing dad...I promise. If you've made it this far, then you obviously care about our baby girl."
Derek then kissed my forehead.
"Thanks, Der. You're always there for me, and sometimes I don't give you credit but I just want you to know that I love you so much and I'm so grateful to have you in my life."
Suddenly, Derek picked me up bridal style and walked back into our house and into our bedroom and began to kiss me.
"So I'm not disgusting to you?" I said jokingly between kisses. He looked down to me, "You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen."
I blushed as he continued to kiss me, and guide us to the bed. That night was full of passionate love making, that had ended with warm cuddling.
The End
A/N: TBH I really liked this one. And if you guys want more like this one, then like the chapter. I will be making a part two for my last chapter but I have three other I'm working so please be patient. Okay love you guys!!
