Dear Phil,
I know you all wanted an answer, I know you wanted to know why I had done it. I wish I could tell you. I wish I had the answer. I don't know when you're reading this, but I know you're a smart guy and you listened to me, that's why I took this risk. What risk am I talking about? If you listened, you'll know by now, if not, you'll find out very soon.
I also wish I could turn back time, I wish I could change the way things happened. But I can't, I'll never will.
You're probably wondering why I asked you to save this, even though I knew it would be painful for you. I didn't mean to hurt you with it, I just felt like, since I can't explain you, it could explain everything a little. Does it? Probably not, I know.
I'm going to ask you to do just a few things:
1. Make sure my kids are OK. Don't do it for me if you don't want to, do it for them. I don't think I was terrible as a father, at least until it happened. I was terrible as a friend and as a person.
2. Tell the guys I'm sorry. I tried telling Guy, but he won't listen to me. I haven't seen Will since the event, however, I felt like he was okay, calmer than Guy.
3. I'd like you to add something to the book, a piece of paper. When the moment comes you'll know what I'm talking about. If you want you can read it, but my advice is that you don't.
4. The most important thing of all: DON'T TELL ANYONE about what's written here.
Now, you could, of course, ignore me. I mean, why would you trust me in the first place? Well, I know that a part of you still feels something for me, even the slightest of feelings. And yes, I'm not you, but I'm a human and I was probably once a good person, I know how it feels to love someone. When that person you love so much betrays you or hurts you you feel empty inside, but that emptiness doesn't mean you stop loving that person. Yes, you feel upset, let down, hurt... but you can still feel love, because all the good times that you spent with that person aren't gone, it takes a lot more to erase them. The memories hurt, yes, but they're still that, memories, and if the memory was happy that happiness is still there, somewhere, in your heart. Even if you don't love me, you once did, and for me that's enough.
Your once friend,
Chris
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A Terrible Mistake
FanfictionLooking at the sky I finally realised what a terrible mistake I had made. I had to run away because the police were chasing me. The guys are mad at me, I don't blame them though, I would be if i were in their place. If only I hadn't done it. "it's d...
