Ghost Eyes one shots

Problems

TW:self harm, bullying, F slursss
Rudolph
I feel tears roll down my face as I slice another marking onto my skin. I watched as blood went down my arm. "Crap, I should've waited at least a little longer." I thought to myself, but I can't help it. I can't take this anymore. Fuck this. I hate this place. I hate feeling like this. I can't take this anymore. I need-
Suddenly I snap from my thoughts as I hear someone yell my name.
"Rudolph?"
Oh, it's Tobias. I clear my throat.
"Yeah, I'm in here.." I say. My throat sounding wobbly from crying, as I put my blade back in my backpack.
"Are you ready for lunch?" He asks. "I had a specific classroom in mind.."
"Oh yeah ok. I'll be out." I say, grabbing toilet paper, trying to stop the bleeding. I than grab more to rap it around my arm. But it kinda wasn't helping. I could hear Tobi getting louder as he walked towards my stall.
"Here." I suddenly hear him say. I look down to see him sticking his hand out of the bottom crack of the stall holding a bandaid box. I frown. He knows.
"Mother gave them to me for some odd reason. Just incase I get hurt. I have yet to use them though." He says. I bend down taking them.
"Thank you, Tobi." I say. I don't think they'll do that well since they're kinda small but whatever. I wipe off more blood than try to put the bandaids on. It looked sloppy, they were in all different places. "That's gonna hurt like hell to take off." I think to myself, rolling my sleeve back down. After I had cleaned my mess I walked out, my bag on my back.
"Hey." I say, with a smile, he frowns looking at me oddly as he takes his bandaid box back.
"Have you encountered Carmelo today?" He asks. I give an awkward laugh. "Don't laugh at me. Answer the question." He demanded.
"Yeah, maybe a little.." I say mumbling the last bit.
"A little?" He mocks letting out a sigh. "Whatever, it doesn't matter. Let's just go to the class I chose to eat at." He says, I nod my head as he leads me out of the bathroom toward the class. As we walk in, Tobi looks around, examining the room.
"Good, no ones here." he says as we sit down next to each other in some random desks. I start taking my lunchbox out, looking at Tobi.
"Where's your food, Tobi?" I ask. He shrugs.
"Im not feeling that hungry." He says sourly.
"Oh alright than." I say, unzipping my lunch box. "So how was your day, Tobi?" I ask making conversation. He yawns.
"Same as always I suppose. But I feel like I should be asking you that. What did Carmelo do?" He questions.
"Huh? Well I thought that didn't matter." I say. He rolls his eyes.
"Of course it does. I only said that earlier so that we could get in here on time. So tell me." He demands again. I frown looking down.
"Nothing to bad, really. He just teased me about my jacket. He said uhh 'why are you wearing that? You look like a nerdy baby' or something like that. But that's all he did. Because we were in class. So he kinda couldn't do anything else." I say, playing the story off as a joke, but I don't think Tobi thought it as a joke.
"Than why did you go to the bathroom?" He questions. I shrug.
"I don't know. Just..not having a good day." I say. He sighs as if he's aggravated with that response. But it's true. I just feel sick and gross today. I don't wanna be here. Plus it's kinda none of his business..no, I know he's just trying to help.
"Well whatever. Just try to stay away from him-"
"Who? Me?" Tobi suddenly gets cut off by a voice coming from the doorway. We both jump in shock from the voice. I look towards the door, finding Carmelo there, Dino standing on the left side and Francis standing on the right. Tobias stands up, as if ready to leave.
"Leave us alone, Carmelo. Or else I WILL hurt you." Tobias says. I look up at him shaking my head as if to tell him "no don't do this."
"Ohh I'm soooo scared." Carmelo says in sarcasm. Tobias walks off, grabbing me by my damaged arm, making me wince.
"W-wait, Tobi, my stuff I-" I say but Tobi wasn't listening as he kept walking, going toward the door but Dino was blocking it.
"Move." Tobias demanded in anger. But of course he wasn't budging. Than suddenly I feel someone tug at the back of the hood of my jacket. Making Tobi let go of my arm. He turns around in shock.
"R-Rudy-" Tobi says but gets his arms forced behind his back by Dino and Francis. That means Carmelo was the one that's-
Suddenly my knees hit the ground as I feel a punch lands to my stomach. I wince, coughing loudly.
"Wait p- please don't, Carmelo. Please-" but he just punch's again.
"Don't tell me what to do." He snaps. I look at Tobi, who was straight ahead of me, he looked worried and scared. I hate that he has to watch this. I would be fine if Tobi wasn't here. This is bad. But I just close my eyes, taking it.
"It's ok, Rudy, he'll get bored soon enough. It'll be over. You and Tobias are gonna eat lunch together like always. But what if he doesn't wanna eat after this. What if-"
I frown realizing the pain of Carmelos punch's went away. I slowly open my eyes and see-
"..T..Tobi..?" I cough out as I see Tobi grabbing Carmelo by his shirt.
"I saiddd that I would hurt you, did I not?" Tobias said, smirking. But no..he was acting different. He's acted like this before.
"What the- get off of me!" Carmelo yells. Tobi just chuckles.
"Wait, Tobi stop-"
"Why?" He interrupts me. Giving me an odd look.
"Do you want him to hurt you? Are you really that much of a freak? Do you enjoy getting touched and hit? Dirty boy~"
I wince, my face heating red, as I feel tears in the corner of my eyes.
"T-Tobias, what are you saying? P-please, just shut up!" I snap. I look over at Carmelo who looked somewhat embarrassed? Tobias let go of Carmelo, Carmelos knees hitting the ground.
"Fine, whatever. I figured since this seemed like a perfect time you could've just spewed how much of a masochist you are to this blue haired fag. But fine then let's leave, darling~" He says as he grabs my arm quickly pushing past Dino and Francis who looked even shocked themselves.
"W-wait, Tobias! M- my stuff!" I say but he just continues running off, taking me somewhere. Finally he opens a door to a dark room and we both get in, him shutting the door. I let out a loud sigh as a land to my knees and I hear Tobi coughing.
"T..Tobias?..Are you ok..?" I say, reaching to try to find a light switch. I finally feel one on the wall, flipping it. I turn around seeing Tobi on his hands and knees, hacking. I frown, then glare.
"What the fuck, Tobias!" I yell, making him jump looking as me. "I..fuck I don't think I can do this anymore.." I mumble quietly.
"R..Rudy whatever I did I'm so sorry I just-"
"HA. Bet that's easy to say. You've been saying that." I interpret.
"I just I can explain-"
"Just PLEASE be quiet, Tobi, I don't wanna hear it." I interpret again.
"No really I-"
"SHUT UP!" I yell, louder then intended. But then again I didn't even expect myself to scream, I just feel so mad. This time he stays quiet. I go over to a corner, sitting there, by myself. Tobi sat on his corner, crying.
"Why the hell is he crying? I should be the one crying. I mean that was just.."
Disgusting.
I'm so disgusting.
I feel tears come down my face as I weep. Tobi notices, looking at me. But stays there. We cry for awhile waiting for the other to speak. The silence was almost discomforting.
"..I'm sorry..I really am..I don't wanna lose you.." Tobi interrupts the silence, talking through tears. I look down not knowing what to say. Suddenly my stomach growls making me jump.
"Damn you, stomach."
"You hungry?" Tobi sniffs, "I still have my backpack with my lunchbox. Do you want it?" He asks. I shake my head no. But my stomach growls protesting against me. I sigh then scoot over towards Tobi. He takes out his lunchbox, opening it to reveal-
"Strawberries!" I say I little to loud I then blush in embarrassment.
"You like strawberries? You can have them if you want." He says handing me the tiny carton. I take it, opening it up and grab one out of the carton, nibbling on it. He chuckles but I just ignore him, looking the other way.
"Rudolph..I'm not sure what I did and you have every right to be mad as me-"
"How?" I say abruptly. "How do you just forget that?"
"I-it's hard for me to explain. I just- I'm sorry really. You could tell me what I did and I'll make sure I never. Do. It. Again. Ok? I promise. Just please if you leave me I don't know what I'll do I- you can even hurt me, punish me even! Anything for what I did-"
"Tobi, I'm not doing that!" I snap, making him jump. "You're my friend. I'm not hurting my friend..and it wasn't THAT bad I just- it was just odd. But you didn't hurt me, not physically."
"Oh God, did I insult you? What did I say?" Tobi says, freaking out a bit. Seriously, how does he just forget this. It doesn't make any sense.
"No, well kinda-"
"Wait." Tobi interrupts. "Carmelo was there too. What did I say to him?"
"Ok, ok I'll tell you.." I say. "You uhh..you called me dirty and said I liked Carmelos bullying. You called me a masochist, Tobi." His face was red and so was mine.
"That's horrible. I'm sorry I just.."
"It's fine, Tobi." I mumble, continuing to nibble at the strawberry. "I just don't wanna think about it.."
"Does your stomach hurt? From Carmelos punching? I could massage it for you."
"Excusemewhat-" I say in confusion.
"Um ..a.. massage? My brother, Mattias, told me that to make it feel better that you could massage it while putting an ice pack on it as well. He would do that for me when my f- um.." He hesitates. "Uh never mind..here." He says taking an ice pack from his lunch box and putting it on my stomach, moving it. I give him in odd look.
"Uhhh-"
"Is this not working? I didn't think so..Mattias is the only one that seems to help with my stomach, I could never do it myself. Maybe it's not even the ice pack or massage that helps my stomach.." He says, moving his hand back.
"Really? Well what does help your stomach then? Does the pain just go away?"
"No..the pain never usually just goes away..it always comes back after a little while..I think it's him. It's like the way he try's to help me and the way he hugs me..I don't know.."
"Well, he seems really nice.. Do you like him, Tobi?"
"Well of course, he is my brother after all but..I kinda pretend I don't. I just don't wanna get him involved with me. I don't wanna be around people who try so hard.." He says then stops to look at me. "You kinda remind me of him..sort of. Annoyingly, sunny, people who won't leave me alone." He says, then starts to smile. "But I suppose you all aren't that bad."
"Awwww, Tobiiii!" I flushed, hugging Tobias.
"Ah- nope, nope. I change my mind. Let go, Rudyyy." He exaggerates, I just chuckle, letting him go.
"Well when should we leave?" I ask him awkwardly. He shrugs.
"When that bell rings I suppose but.." he mumbles looking down. "I kinda don't wanna leave..I wanna stay in here. I hate it out there. This place is annoying and I hate it at home.." he says looking like he's about to cry.
"Hey hey it's ok, Tobi. I know I can be kinda annoying too but you still have me and I'll try really hard to help you, ok?"
"No..you aren't annoying." He interrupts. "And I don't even deserve you..i don't deserve your pity so please don't feel sad for me I just..I mean I hurt you I.." He says, starting to cry. I then lean a bit to hug him. Letting him sob. I'm really glad that Tobi is letting his feelings out. I know he has problems and I'm sure I can help him with them. I would want to help.
"It's ok, Tobi. I'll help you out as much as I can, I promise!"

I promise
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