Twin Flames

1.

When I met him, I was at the lowest point of my life. I was about to hit rock bottom, to be honest, I was about to leave. School sucked, my relationship with my parents sucked and I had no idea how love or even friendships worked.

I remember the first time we talked. I was all alone, listening to some music in the corner of the study room. He came up to me, we started talking, and eventually became friends.

I didn't realize right away that he was my twin flame, but at some point, I felt a strong connexion, something I never felt before. For the first time in my life, I felt love, I had someone to rely on. For someone that always had to look after everyone, it felt nice. He knew everything about me the good sides as well as the bad ones, my battle against depression, my messy love life, and all. However, life taught me that no matter how much people love each other sometimes it is simply not enough.

But the whole point of me writing this is not to talk about the drama or the sad part of this friendship. Dji, I wanna address this directly to you.

My dear Dji, my twin flame. 

The other day you asked me if I still wanted to be friends with you after what happened. I got really mad when I read your message, how can you ask me that ?  Of all people, feeling like I was losing you was the most painful thing that could ever happen to me. Since I met you, no matter what you did I never stopped loving you how could I ? I felt this huge hole in my chest whenever you were not around. I never understood love, but I think you taught me what it was. With you I learned that someone who loves you cares about you, they always make sure you are alright, they are cheerful, supportive, and most importantly when you feel like you just want to give up, they're here for you. That's what you did for me, you taught me all of those things. I wish there was a stronger word for "I love you" because those three words will never be enough. You gave me hope, made me laugh, and made me realize my worth. If I were to explain what love is, I would say it's giving your everything without asking anything in return. I love you as much as I can, I love you wherever I am and no matter what. You are my other half, the missing part of my soul. Don't you dare give up on me because I'm not giving up on you. Don't you dare forget that.

If I lose my battle over depression, I want you to know that I deeply loved you and that no matter what you do it will never change.

To Dji with love.