converse

10.

london layed off of greta so he wouldnt scare haley too much. haley and london both dont like yelling and fighting. its all what their parents knew how to instead of love eachother and their kids. well, their mother wanted the world for them. sadly it wasnt the same for their father. poor london couldnt even tell the story about what happened without having a flashback and a breakdown.

but thats beside the point. the twins were one of the same. and always will be.

london huffed as picks up haley and hold her like a stuffed animal.london was nothing but a gentle giant if you really know him, unless your a bad person.

"so- what do we do-" george sighed as he sat on the counter dangling his stick like legs on the edge.

"i dont know, maybe walk?" london responded as haley agreed, they all went out the door as london still carried haley.

they stopped at a abandoned barn and walked around. haley then stopped in her tracks when she say a old and used rope hanging from the broken ceiling. it was tied as a noose. she looked up at it and spaced out. it seemed.... to pull her in.... it looked so... right. the rope was old and frail but fuck- maybe she could be free... maybe she could just spend eternity with her twin brother.... become as powerful as him... they could live in the perfect world- no stupid people telling you what to do... no-no suffering... no pain... london said he liked it right? he isnt hurting now- he seemed more happy. what if she just-

london stepped in the way of haleys view of the roped and looked at her with concern.

"the others went back because clay was visiting... we need to talk." london scaned haley up and down as she snapped out of it. fuck. she knew what this was going to be about. to avoid it she looked down at the dirt and dusty floor as london used his tail to make her look up at him. there was no avoiding this anymore. it had to happen.

"honey bug you know im not stupid....." london put his hands behind his back as he looked at haley with a professional like stance and feeling to him. his tail gently wrapped around haleys small and thin body that at one time was healthy and not being starved. haley just stayed silent and acted like he didnt know. but he did.

"love... come on i dont want to play this game-" london teared up and bit as he bent down to haleys eye level, his tail grip now tight around her as he rested his hands on her shoulders. haley just stared at him with dull eyes.

it was silent for a minute or two as haley spoke up.

"but it seems so easy.... you said you arent in pain anymore... i-... i want the pain to go away..." haley moved around a bit getting uncomfy. the air became thick again as london looked haley in the eyes as black tears run down his cold cheeks.

"im sorry i left you... i really am.... i wish we could be happy together.... but you have to understand that you need to stay"

"but i dont- i can just- i can just be like you and-and we can still talk to george clay and greta- we can be happy.. please london... im in pain.... it hurts. i want to be happy with you."

london painfully sighed and sniffled as he tried to be more calm.

dont get him wrong. he loves his sister to death. and hed give up everything to be alive again and with her. but he cant. it hurts even worse when he sees his own twin sister wants to commit suicide so she can be with him.

it would be great having her with him. but having her take her life away from herself so she could be with him and miss life all together, that is what makes it bad.

"hey. bug. look at me. look at me." london said as haley looked him in the eyes.

"i know im dead. and it would be great to be with you. but you cant just do it to be with me. you will be ok... im still here. i just have limits. and you have all my clothes that i used to own with you, and you have my converse- my favorite pair of shoes in the whole world." haley looked down at her feet. she was wearing londons converse- londons. orange and worn down, and on the white bits of the shoe have smiley faces in pen written on them. and londons name on the back saying 'property of london graves' and next to it saying 'haley was here'. and she was wearing londons old clothes to, his pair of baggy sweat pants and his giant my chemical romance shirt. but- it still didnt make her feel completely happy. there was a hole always there. no matter how hard she tried to fill it. its there.london looks down at her shoes to. london had the same pair on his feet but they were just a replica.

"heh- we even match-" london laughed softly as they looked at eachother. and haley quickly hugged london tight as she sobbed in his black hoodie.

"hey hey- just remember honey bug..." london began as he rubbed haleys back.

"my converse is whats left of me. yeah the clothes are nice.... but my converse..."

"my converse will always be the reason you need to stay."