Tankman X Steve stuff

💀Just some slits

This one was requested by me

I want some angsts, so have this story!
Also, this will include:
S3lf-h4rm

If you're uncomfortable with the ones I mentioned here, then I suggest leaving this one unread.

I also might not censor the words so, if you're uncomfortable about it also, then leave this one unread, I guess.

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It was 7 am in the morning. Steve had got up and get himself ready before leaving his room.
He took a shower firstly, and then wear his usual outfit/armour. He then walked out of his room and walk out of the base, meeting a flashing light of the sun to his face. It kinda hurt his eyes a bit due to being in the dark, but his eyes will get used to the sunlight.
He walked to the cafeteria, expecting someone to be there. But.. that someone isn't there yet.
Steve doesn't seem too bothered about it, that someone could still be asleep or about to get himself ready. Steve was the first one to get breakfast. He had some tasty pancakes and of course, a glass of water.
Steve had finished his food and drink, but that someone still haven't came yet. This brings Steve into curiosity. And so, he stood up, going back to the base to check up that person.

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Clock ticking, left and right. Filling the emptiness of the room.
Captain still on his bed, not wearing his usual armour but his typical outfit to sleep. A tank top and his boxers.
He seemed to not try and get himself ready. He just lays on the bed, not moving like a dead body. Though, he is still indeed breathing. He just seemed.. unmotivated to do anything.
Captain looks at his right wrist, and there it is.. his slits that he made. Why did Captain purposely make slits onto his wrists? What is happening?
Some are scars and some are freshly new slits.
Captain sat up, seemed to be looking for something. He looked under the pillow and his bedsheets. He then pull out some sort of tool. Something that a math class would use. A compass?
Captain must've took it from his office and bring it to his room. But what for?
Well, you know the answer. To cut himself. He used that sharp tip of it.
1 cut...2 cuts... 3 cuts...
Captain seemingly to enjoy this. Enjoying hurting himself. But for what reason he is doing this to himself?
Captain stopped.
He then slammed himself back to bed. Going back not doing anything but just laying there and listen to the clock ticking.

Then suddenly..

A knock on his door!
Captain flinched. But still doesn't do anything about it. Still laying there.
Another few knocks, seemingly to get more louder. "Cap! Are you in there? We're supposed to patrol today!"
A familiar voice had said. Captain was convinced that it was Steve. Since, who would check up their own captain but his best friend, Steve.
Though, despite the knocks and Steve's voice. It doesn't really affect him to get up from his bed.
Steve seemingly to get a bit annoyed, and starts to knock more louder. And with a few knocks. Captain had FINALLY open his door.
Captain had a tired look on his face, but though, he was wearing his goggles. His arms are behind him, trying to hide his slits.
Captain spoke for the first time in this day. "Heyyy, Steve. What's up?"
He spoke in a somewhat happy tone to remove suspicion from Steve.
"Oh, Cap. Finally. You're still not in your armour. We should be patrolling right now." Steve said, a bit annoyed.
"Ehhh, I'll get ready soon. Just wait a bit more will ya?" Captain replied.
Steve seemed a bit hesitant, but I guess he'll let him off for now. "Oh. Well, alright, Cap. Just be hurry. I'll be waiting at the tank." Steve said, seemed to have calmed down a bit.
"Haha, yeah sure!" Captain replied again and closed the door at Steve.
Captain sighed, knowing he has to get himself ready now and get to work.
But he has no choice anyways.
Without a thought, Captain undressed himself and got to the shower. He switched the shower on. Warm water began pouring onto his body. About to make it's way to his slits. His wrists began to burn and cramped. But despite how painful it is, Captain just walks it off since he had done it several times already.

He finished showering and began to wipe himself with his towel.
He then starts to put on his usual armour and got ready. And he finally opened his door and walk out of the room. Gosh, it took so long for him to get going.
When he walk out of the base, the sunlight greeted him. Making him cover his face with his arms. His eyes were adjusting the brightness so he could see without a problem.
He goes to where Steve said he would be.
And there he is. Steve was slouching against the tank and his arms crossed. He looks bored and annoyed.
Steve then look at Captain's direction. He finally saw the man himself out of the room.
"God, took you long enough! Should we get going now?" Steve asked.
"Yeah, let's go." Captain said in a tired tone which surprised Steve a bit but it doesn't bother him.
Steve got in the tank first and Captain last. Captain sat behind Steve and Steve was starting the engine.
And they had began to roll.

Silence goes beyond them. No conversation, no nothing. Captain used to be the one who would start a conversation. But now, he doesn't seem to do those now. This makes Steve to make a move now.
"So, Cap. How are you today?" Steve said, breaking the silence between them.
"Eh, doing alright. How about you Steve?" Captain said in a tired tone again.
"Doing alright as well, Cap! Just had some nice pancakes. And speaking of pancakes. Have you had breakfast already, Cap?" Steve replied with a question along.
This brings silence to Captain, knowing that he didn't eat anything today. He didn't answer that question.
Steve waited for a minute, and assumed he haven't eaten.
"Well, I guess that's a no.. you wanna eat something when we get back to the base?" Steve asked.
"Sure." Captain replied in a simple way, but a tired tone in his voice.
Steve seems to get more curious.
Captain's voice has been nothing but a tired tone. It's different than the time he checked up on him. But, who doesn't feel tired anyway?
Steve understood, and doesn't want to think of it as a bad way. He just rubs it off.

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1139 words holy FUC-

Just gonna split this into 2 parts!
The 2nd part will come out soon after this one.
But hope you enjoyed this one!

I wrote this on 4 am, sooo yeah. I got tired