Shattered (Eremika)

Chapter 6

I could tell that everybody was excited. When I got back from changing into something comfortable I looked out into the lake. "Its...nice out today." I looked at Armin who was talking to Annie and Reiner. I sat at the edge of the dock like last night. 'Ouch...I guess I cut a little to deep last night.' I looked at my wrist. 

"Hey! Eren come on in grumpy pants!"
I looked over to horse face who was trying to talk to Mikasa.

I smelled Armin walking up to me.
"You know Armin even if you where quite you would never be able to sneek up on me I can still smell you."

I looked over my shoulder to see him smirking "damn that nose of yours is good." He sat down next to me. " Look you don't have to swim buy try to at least make one of them an acquaintance. I'm adding you to the group chat on snapchat."
I looked at him. "I don't have A snapchat."
He gave me a smirk." You do now. Last night i hacked into your phone and downloaded it and made you an account."

I looked at him and gave him a little smack.
I really shouldn't have told you to learn how to do that."
He chuckled.

After like a hour everybody was out and ready to eat lunch.
As we sat there around each other in a circle on the beach eating people where talking. I could tell that Armin found a good set of friends for him.

"Hey Eren....you good I know you don't talk but even you are acting strange..."

I looked up to see Reiner looking at me. Out of all of them so far I would say Reiner and Mikasa are acquaintances.

I gave him a nod and ate my lunch. After a while everybody was back in the water, playing and having a good time. Armin got in and played around with them. I can tell that Annie is flirting with him. 'Armin for a guy with a 188 Iq you are oblivious.'

It's funny and weird to see Armin have friends...the last one we had was Caith...
As they where getting finished swimming for a while I noticed Mikasa looking at me a lot.
I can tell she has some sort of crush on me. Everything I walk anywhere near her she always blushes and fixes her hair and sits up straight. At this point I could care less. I haven't felt love or any emotion besides sadness in years.

I went a little bit away from the camp site to change my bandages. I looked at my wrists intently. I have these spouts of depression where everyday I would cut and do like 10 cuts per day. I was like that for 4 years than another 2 years. I still cut but I do it more of a relaxer. Back then it was a drug and I needed a fix.

I redid my bandages and went back to the camp. We leave tomorrow so they where getting their camp ready for night. I walked up to them.

"Eren! Where you been?"
I looked at Historia who was also trying to get Mikasa's attention.
The sun set pretty fast honestly. Reiner a few hours earlier had left to go get some burgers for tonight and now is grilling over the fire. I was sitting next to the fire when it popped and a ember landed on my side.

"Hnng!"
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"Mommy...Daddy why did you leave." I looked around the room frantically and heard the door open. I saw a man that was bald but had some sort of tree tattoo on his face.
"Now, Now Eren. You just gotta do what we say and you won't be killed.

"I want my Mommy!!" I shrieked.

SLAP
"YOU STUPID BITCH! Now stay quiet."
My cheek stung. But my heart dropped when I saw a man with a similar tattoo but with a glowing re knife.
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......"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAA"

I looked around to see Armin and his friends all around me. " Eren are you Allright you where yelling."
Too many people where asking and talking at once I fled the scene.
I got as far away as possible and got away from the site I ran for maybe 10 minutes. I took off my shirt in a frenzy and looked at the burn scar on my right side...i started to cry and cry. I grabbed my knife and started to slash away at my arms.
10 no
20 no 30
No 40 cuts deep when I started to loses consciousness.

"EREN!!!"

HEY YOU GUYS IM BACK WITH A NOTHER CHAPTER I KNOW ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE LAST CHAPTER BUT I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH MY OWN DEPRESSION. THIS STORY IS LOOSELY BASED OFF OF MY LIFE AND THE DEPRESSION IS MAINLY BUILT OFF OF MINE SO I DEAL WITH MY MONSTER AND PUT IT ON HERE. ANYWAY THIS CHAPTER IS A BIT SHORTER THAN THE OTHERS BUT HOPE YOU ENJOYED.