The Past We Shared {Book 1 of the "Tortured Fates" series Fairy Tail FF AU}

4: Goodbye, My Love

A/N: AAYOOOOOOOO WASSUP MINNA~SAN YES, MY COMPUTER IS STILL A BROKEN PIECE OF CRAP SO HERE I AM ON MY WII U SO I APOLOGIZE IF THIS PART IS SHORTER THAN USUAL, MAYBE 500 ISH WORDS? SORRY MINNA T.T

NOW I THINK I CAN CRAWL OUT OF THE CLOSET BUT IMMA HAVE TO GO INTO EXPERT HIDING SOON :D

OKAY, BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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{Natsu's P.O.V}

My heart hangs limply in my throat, and breath is something that is unable to fill my lungs. The more I disgustingly inhale, the more Lucy's blood soaked scent abuses my nostrils.

As reluctant as anyone could be, I start searching the house in hopes of finding my wife and baby girl. I shakily check behind the bloodstained couch, and bile rises in my throat.

Hot tears sting my eyes, and I choke on them, though not allowing them to fall.

Behind the flipped couch lay Lucy's keys, soaked in blood.

I have to look away, trying to rid my eyes of the sight of her blood, though it seems to be wherever I look.

I clear my throat to unclog my sinuses, though it does nothing. Behind me, I hear the door swing open, and I numbly turn around to see Gray there, taking survey of the carnage.

"Damn." He mumbles under his breath, though his attention snaps to me soon enough.

"Natsu. Lucy or Nashi's not here." He begins, and it feels as if my teetering world is slowly set back on balance.

"Where in the hell are they?" My mind speaks my thoughts, and hope stitches into my soul.

"At the guild, but Nat-"

I don't pause to hear what else he has to say, as my feet begin charging for me, and my heart beats erratically.

Stripper gives up on his speech, and soon joins me in running beside me.

"Natsu, would you slow down a freaking minute?" Gray tries again, but when I see the guild appear in my line of sight, I am pumped with vigor, a burning passion to see my family.

Right before I crash through the doors, Gray finally manages to get ahead of me and stop me, and I make a feeble attempt to maneuver past him.

"Gray, what the hell my family's in there!" I shout, completely and utterly pissed off.

"Natsu, something happe-"

A rough, dry scream erupts from the guild, and my world stops.

That's Lucy's scream.

That's my wife screaming in pain.

I avoid all warnings from Gray, and roughly crash through the doors, though am once again stopped from entering the infirmary doors. My eyes flash to the red haired woman, and I pull on her grip.

"Natsu, listen. Lucy's... Injured."

I scoff, but swallow roughly and tug on Erza again when Lucy screams in agony.

My heart literally starts to ache, knowing that only a flimsy piece of wood is blocking me from her, save for Erza.

"Erza-san!" Wendy's panicked whimper comes from inside of the room and both of our attention levitates towards the door.

"Let him in Erza-san."

Erza releases me, and I am in the room in mere seconds.

tears streak down Wendy's face as soft blue light cascades over Lucy, who is surrounded in a pool of her own blood.

My legs feel like lead, but I approach her anyway, and Lucy seems to notice, for she fumbles for my hand as her chest heaves.

I stroke her hair, clumped and stained. She screams agonizingly again, and I wince as she does so. Seeing her in pain and knowing I can't do anything to soothe her had to be the worst thing in my life.

Tears flow down Wendy's cheeks, and even though she's 15, this is a gruesome sight for anyone.

Lucy's screaming eventually ceases, and her body trembles and her chest heaves.

Wendy leans on the bed for support, then cast her eyes towards me.

"Natsu-nii." She begins, but chokes on tears.

"Natsu-nii... I'm sorry."

my heart stopped.

"Sorry f-for what?" I mumble, my eyes pleading for an answer as my insides twist.

"Zeref... He cursed Lucy-san. Dark magic is embedded in her soul... And I can't remove it."

I swallow a lump in my throat, losing the on standing battle with my tears as they relentlessly slip down my cheeks.

"I-Its n-not your f-fault Wendy-san..." A weak whimper calls from on the bed. Wendy shakes her head and buries her face in her hands and begins uncontrollably sobbing into them as she exits the room.

"N-Nats-Su..." Lucy whispers, and my gaze immediately snaps to her and her only. I stroke her hair, and lean down closer to her.

"I'm here Love. I'm right here." I softly mumble back.

"I-I'm s-sorry N-Natsu... I... W-Wasn't s-strong enough..." She cries, her words slurring together as her pained yet beautiful eyes stare into mine.

I shake my head, softly kissing her forehead. "You did everything you could have done Lucy, you have nothing to be sorry for."

She slowly shakes her head, then as if a cloud of smoke cascades over her, her beautiful chocolate eyes shroud with fog.

Her breathing quickens, and her foggy eyes zip all over the room in a panicked frenzy.

"N-Natsu...?"

"I'm right here Luce."

"Natsu... I-its dark..."

I choke on more tears, unable to say anything else as reality sinks in

Lucy is going to die.

I softly caress her precious, almost porcelain face, trying to offer every ounce of comfort I could manage.

"N-Natsu... Do s-something f-for m-me."

I choke on a sob, my heart aching with fear and heartache.

"Anything."

"T-Take c-care o-of... Nashi... Keep h-her s-safe... And s-smile t-to make h-her laugh... S-sing to h-her w-when she c-cries. B-be the one t-to teach h-her about m-magic w-when she's o-older. B-but m-most o-of all..."

Lucy shakily takes a breath to regain her breath, then begins to talk softly again.

"B-But m-most of a-all... Hold h-her in y-your arms w-when she h-has n-nightmares... Just l-like

You d-did f-for m-me..."

I softly pull her body into my arms, my forehead pressed to the side of her head as my body shakes with remorse.

I can tell Lucy is fading, like a flower slowly wilting as the seasons come and go. She is like a flower... So precious and delicate... I can't live without her.

"L-Lucy... D-don't leave me..."

A small smile crawls onto her dirty face... And I feel her alabaster fingers slowly run through my hair.

"I-I l-love..."

Silence.

Her body goes limp right in my arms.

My Lucy... My precious wilted flower...

is... Gone.

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*hides from probably angry readers.*

I'M SORRY ;-;

its okay if u wanna cry.

goodbye... Imma go cry now and live with the monster I am...