Finding Love - SidNaaz FF

•SHOT 03• Finding Love

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Finding Love - SidNaaz
SHOT 03

My feet was trembling, I couldn't take a step ahead and enter his room, the room which was mine too but somehow it did not feel like it was, felt like I am not someone who should be here. This place is not suppose to have me! His room I had no right to enter it! I just wanted to run out of this house somewhere... maybe where I could just hide myself and cry until my soul dies!
I really couldn't believe what was happening, He's my husband now, but will I ever be able to be his wife! If he doesn't consider me as his wife then how could I move in the room, I shouldn't right?
"Aapne pyaar par bharosa rakho! "
Maa was right, I should trust my love for him and maybe things would get better! I stepped in and his room felt so unknown to me, his room held coldness, no warmth, no heat just coldness. Looking around I could make out that he preferred to keep his room neat and clean, no mess nothing. The room felt as if it held so much on to it! I could feel the amount of tears, screams and frustration this room had witnessed but then also she could sense some kind of feeling at some corner of the room, a corner which held love and peace! How she wished she could fill this room with love, love she had for him! She was waiting for him, she didn't know if he would come or not but still she waited. She heard the door being pulled and he came in. He looked exhausted and his eyes were watery it felt as if he cried. Her heart broke seeing him! She knew he wasn't weak but "Kehte haina, pyaar ek ensaan ki taqaat aur kamzoori dono hota hai, aur iss waqt Shanaya di ka pyaar unki kamzoori hai! " her mind told her.

"Sidharth, aap thik Haina? " Shehnaaz voiced out not sure if she could ask it now! He sighed and looked at her, he could she was in the same position as his! Even she had agreed to marry him even after knowing that he loved Shanaya, her sister! "Yeah, I'm absolutely fine.. Tum jao change Karlo all this must be heavy! " he said and sat on the couch browsing through his phone. She nodded and took all her belongings and went to the washroom. She had already taken out all her jewelry. As she entered the washroom her tears made way! She sometimes felt so stupid to cry every now and then but it had no control of her, it just starts pouring even before she realises.
"Shanaya di ka pyaar unhe kamzoor bana raha hai, lekin pyaar toh humari taqaat hota haina ..toh phir aisa kyu? " she thought. She was so in love with Sidharth that all she had was for Sidharth. She didn't care for herself. Even she was getting weak but who cares? All she cares was for Sidharth!
Isn't it really stupid to just think about the person you are in love with and not about yourself?  It isn't right? So why was Shehnaaz doing so, didn't she even care for herself, bas har waqt Sidharth.. Only Sidharth! Aapne baare mein sochne se Kya pyaar khatam ho jata hai? Nahi na! So why was Sidharth the only thing she knew! She is ruining herself this way, she'll ruin herself even more if she stays with him!

"Nahi, kabhi nahi unke saath rehkar toh mujhe himmat milti hai, aur kaise sirf aapne baare mein sochoon jab meri har soch mein woh hai, mere dil mein woh hai! Jab Maine unse pyaar kiya tha tab yeh nahi socha tha ki aage kya hoga, I love him because I wanted! Pyaar mein kabhi koi selfish nahi hota. Pyaar aapko dard de sakta hai, kamzoor bana sakta hai, Tod sakta hai lekin kabhi aapko mita nahi sakta kabhi aapko barbaad nahi kar sakta! Chahe pyaar mein jitni bhi takleef ho lekin aapko uss pyaar mein woh takleef bhi sahi lagti hai! Yahi hota haina pyaar? Pyaar kabhi galat nahi ho sakta woh shayad sahi bhi nahi ho sakta lekin jo bhi hai pyaar karne se kabhi darna nahi chahiye... Pyaar mera pyaar hai Sidharth aur mere liye kaafi hai! " she told herself wipping off her tears she got up and got freshned.

She came out and found him finding something in his closet. She kept her stuff back at her suitcase and climbed up the bed to sleep. She hesitated to sleep on the bed but decided against doing it! She has to be strong and need to get things right! They were married and they had some basic rights in it and they had to abide by it! She was going to lay down when she saw him coming out of the washroom, he looked so fresh and good after a shower! How she wished she could see him the same way everyday! She saw him going out of the room and her heart sank! "Kya unhe mere saath kamre mein rehne mein bhi problem ho rahi hai? " she asked herself! She thought of stopping him, "Itni raat ko Kahan ja rahe hai aap? " she asked him. He stopped and looked around facing her he said, "Woh thoda low feel kar raha hoon, Chai banane ja raha hoon! " and smiled at her because he could read from her face that she was worried. "Sidharth main bana doon? " she asked him to which he replied "Nahi Shehnaaz, you take rest... Mujhe aata hai Chai banana" and smiled turning around to go. "Main Chai bahot aachi banati hoon, people used to die for my tea! " she said and giggled and got up from the bed and came towards him, "Can I?" she asked him and he nodded.