𝕄𝕪 𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕝𝕪 𝔸𝕔𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕞𝕚𝕒

Melanie Mix (Ochako focused Izuocha)

A mixture of her songs

Ship: Izuocha

Character: Ochako Uraraka

Artist: Melanie Martinez

Album: Crybaby

I will only take certain lyrics for obvious reasons, these are probably one of my biggest comfort songs and I am doing poorly atm so I need to write angst.

Okay enjoy

Angst with a happy ending...... okay nevermind :)

CW. Strong language, depression, Eating disorders, toxic relationships, cigarettes, alcohol, death if any of that is triggering or uncomfy please click away   

Ochako POV BTW^^^

"I feel like I'm glued on tight to this Carousel"

Bubbly and sweet my ass. I hate everything about life right now. God, why does tv make it look so fucking easy? Like what the hell Hollywood you bunch of cheap ass liars. Why won't anyone listen to me? They're all like "Izuku this and Izuku that oh you just Izuku's new girl must suck for you ya know he's a player" for god's sake I'm not him okay? I'm not just his new fling of the month. I have a name. Everything I do always finds itself under his name. It's like I'm glued to him. We haven't even graduated high school. In our last year here I am failing all seven classes and without a hero license. I lost it saving a certain someone's career. Will this cycle of tremendous failure end?

"Kids are still depressed when you dress them up"

We graduated a month ago. I feel nothing. I flat-out refused to go on the graduation vacation. Watching all of my classmates have fun. Even if I went I wouldn't find any interest in it anyway. I found an apartment in a not-so-great part of town but there's a roof over my head. I don't even know what I'm gonna do with my life. I stay in bed not finding the energy to get out of. Asui came by and brought me something to eat and cleaned the place up a little bit, but that was two weeks ago. Before we graduated Aizawa practically begged me to get into some sort of therapy. I obliged and went however she ditched me after two months and haven't talked to her since and it seriously shows. I dumped Izuku for no reason. He came through the door and I said "Izuku we're done" I didn't give him an explanation or anything I told him to leave and I haven't heard from him since. I feel like such a douchebag for it. He was good to me but he can find better. "Ochako get dressed" I hear a voice call from my bedroom door. "What are you doing here?" I replied annoyed. "I'm taking you into society, get your ass out of bed and get dressed" he replies, closing the door behind him. I regret giving Todoroki a key to my apartment.

"You've got weights in your pocket when you go to the doctors"

"I don't understand you were at an appropriate weight last time you were here?" the doctor tells me worriedly. I simply shrugged it off and started at the wall. "You lost thirty pounds in the last three months, do you understand how scary and detrimental to your health that is?" I shake my head and pretend to care. "I need you to look at me and answer me truthfully, are you eating?" he asks, looking me in the eyes. I shake my head no. Truthfully I can't remember the last time I ate anything. I think it was last week but even then I only ate half of it anyway. The doctor sighed and began asking questions. "When was the last time you ate anything?" "Last week I ate half a banana," I responded. "Well If you can promise me that you'll eat more then I won't send you to a recovery facility" he warns. I nod and leave the doctor's office. On the way out I stuffed two apples from the snack shop into my coat pockets. "Ma'am you have to pay for those" I turned around and looked at her. She just nodded and shooed me away. I walked out of the building and went home. I opened the door and threw myself onto the carpeted hallway closing the door with my foot.