Type is so exhausted with everything, fixing everything up and finding all the possible leads he can take. He decides to go to a bar to chill and have his twin brother to take care of the twins. He wants to be drowned in alcohol. He called Dean to pick him up after 5 hours since he must be drunk by that time. He knows he is inconveniencing Tharn's twin but they're actually happy to help Type in every way they could.
Type watches as the people inside the bar come and go. It is a bar for commoners so he can be sure that Tharn and his bitch is not around, so he can be himself even just for a bit. He can let go of the heavy burden he is holding even if it is just for a bit. He can embrace the pain that he tried to ignore because he has to.
The band that's playing asks if someone wants to volunteer singing a song on the stage and maybe out of drunkenness or what but Type volunteered. He let go of singing for so many years now and that's because of Tharn. He used to cry whenever he sings, he remembers Tharn in every song he decided to just quit singing.
"Hello, my name is Nattarin" Type introduced himself after standing on the stage and taking the microphone, of course he doesn't want to introduce himself as Type. "Here's a song from me and This is for the ones who were left behind and was let go and for those who Are still holding on. To the ones who are the only one holding on, If you are, then this is your sign. This is My sign too" Type smiled bitterly.
(I like you so much, you'll know it - a break up song by Ysabelle)
I like your eyes, you looked away when you pretended to care
I like the dimples on the corners of the smile that you wear
You wore them more with her, I knew and I was scared
I let myself fall deeper but I was prepared
I liked your shirt, the one I gave you can't forget how you smell
But now on different shoulders hang the jacket I used to wear
I loved you for so long, sometimes it's hard to bear
But after all this time I wish you well from here
I loved you every minute, every second
Loved you everywhere and any moment
Always and forever was just for a moment
'cause I was not the one, I don't know how
I loved you 'til the last of snow disappeared
Missed you on the rainy days of the year
Never knew of pain like this but I've got to know
Thought I loved you so
Why did you go?
I hate the way you let us go like it was all just nothing
I hate the way you hit the notes, but not the words I'm saying
I hate the little things like when I'm unaware
I still remember how we broke so perfectly
Though sometimes when life brings me down
Time can heal my heart
Through the bad rainy days
I know that I will be okay
I loved you every minute, every second
Loved you even if it was for a moment
Always and forever can wait for the time because
You were not the one, I know that now
In a world still full of life I see color
In a bit of time 'cause we deserve better
Always and forever when the right one comes because
Part of loving you is letting go
Part of loving you was letting go
Every word that came out of Type's mouth is like a venom in his heart. It seems like this song was made for him, this is party his fault but it hurts like hell.
Everyone cheered for him, his voice is still so beautiful like before and he delivered the emotion as it should be, making the song more painful and sad than it was originally sang.
Type sniffed, "Cheers!" He raised the Mic before he gave it back to the vocalist of the band. He walked back to the his table and he realized that Dean is already sitting opposite of him.
"Are you okay?" Dean asked, Fight is with him.
"Why shouldn't I? I'm totally fine!" Type said, smiling at the two. He knows that he isn't but you have to pretend that you don't feel the pain until the day that you forget you're pretending. No matter how Type healed, his heart is still soft.
(Short flashback)
"Type..."
"Tharn is getting married? I know. He could wait, a little bit more time and we can be together again" Type's tears starts to fall. He is on a video call with Tharn's parents. They just knew Type is alive 1 year after Type went missing. They want to tell Tharn about it but Type said not to. He wants to cure his sickness first, if he survived then he will go back to Tharn but if he dies, then it's great for them not to know he is alive. At least for that the pain they will experience is not that deep.
"I already expected this Da, Pa but it just hurts that my husband found someone else and of all people why Ice?" Type asked, he let his tears to fall.
"You know that we tried convincing him not to marry her but we failed. He is just as stubborn, we almost spilled that you're alive and just recuperating" Gulf said but Type can't probably stop his tears. He feels all the kind of pain, the pain of being left behind, being let go, being forgotten.
"If he is happy with her.." Type sniffed, he tried to be strong but he fails "then, let him be happy with her. I will no longer interfere with their life but I want my kids" Type said while crying, some of his words were muffled.
"I'm sorry, Type." Gulf said, he just want to go where Type is and hug his son in law but he can't. Type prohibits them to visit because he may want to go back with him and just abandon his treatment.
"Don't worry about me da. I'll will be okay." Type said before ending the call. It was just then when he just want to give up, to quit the treatment, to just die because his life has no meaning. He is just lucky that Tine is with him to constantly remind him of his kids. If Tharn doesn't want him anymore, his kids do. He already sacrificed a lot just to stay alive, sacrificing his love and happiness maybe is just part of the process. Letting go of Tharn maybe is really worth it.
(End of flashback)
Type wiped the tears that he didn't notice that's falling.
"Shall we go home? I think I'm drunk enough to be in this state" Type said, faking a smile.
Why does love really goes well with pain. Can't you just love with being hurt? Because it's too much that it kills you.
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So I actually just write this update because of that song. I got inspired, so before the idea goes, I write it 😁
How was it?
Omg. I can feel Type's pain. Let him go, Type. 😭😭
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My Everything
FanfictionBook 2 of My Almost. Type is dead or supposed to be dead but then he suddenly show up in front of Tharn, his current wife, and his kids. How will Tharn deal with the situation.
