Being a hit-wizard is not easy | Drarry

Chapter thirteen

Bad decisions are not news to Draco.

At eleven, he used a kid's economic status to insult him, just to look better in the eyes of a child he wanted as a friend, in return he lost every chance at ever having that friendship.

At twelve, when a girl smarter than him made a comment on how his father had used his influence to get Draco a spot on the Quidditch team, Draco had used such a foul word against her that, had he the ability to time-travel, he would go back to that moment and whack himself repeatedly with his Nimbus 2001.

At thirteen, his jealousy of Potter had made him behave like a dumbass at the wrong moment, resulting in a more than deserved hippogriff slap. The thin, long scar on his right forearm serves as a reminder of that bad decision.

Many other lousy decisions followed, all with the appropriate punishment. He was punched in the face, turned into a ferret and hit with one of Ginevra Weasley's trademark Bat-Bogey Hexes, among the most memorable ones.

Draco is not a stranger to astronomically bad choices either, the mark on his arm being the first on the list.

Up until yesterday, the second on the list of Draco's worst decisions ever, had been trusting his father blindly down the path to murdertown, now, Draco has another epically stupid choice to add.

Why the fuck did he say yes to Potter?

Why the FUCK did he say yes to Potter?

Draco is not stupid, on the contrary, he's very bright, he has a rational mind, he's perceptive, ingenious, resourceful, in the muggle world, they would say he has a high IQ, he can read very fast and memorize large amounts of data, elaborate it, extrapolate the relevant information and use it appropriately. He can tell whether something is a good idea or not, he can predict most of the consequences his actions may have, he can see connections, paths, options, he can calculate probabilities, choose the right strategy to solve his problems.

In short, he's smart, exceptionally smart.

Then why the fuck did he say yes to Potter?

There is absolutely no rational reason for Draco to spend any more time in Potter's company, on the contrary, there are multiple reasons why complying with Potter's request is not only foolish, but borderline insane.

Draco ponders over the matter under the hot jet of the shower on Thursday morning, he's always found both showers and baths to be perfect places for thinking.

Reason number one: Potter is an Auror.

It shouldn't even need to be said, but Draco apparently hasn't yet gotten the message in that thick skull of his.

Aurors are the enemy.

They shouldn't be, but they are. The secrecy under which Draco has to work, allows him no friends, no allies. Death Eaters and Aurors are on the same level on this, they both cannot know about Draco. Having a meeting with Potter, who's not only an Auror, not only the Head Auror, but a remarkable wizard with years of experience in catching killers, killers like Draco, is extremely dangerous.

Of course, not leaving a body, working in the shadows and killing people that are virtually untraceable and whose absence should go unnoticed, are all factors in Draco's favour. It would be more likely for Potter to suspect Draco of something if there was an open investigation on a murder, which there isn't.

Still, Aurors are good observer, they are trained to catch even the barest hint and deduce from that. A minimal misstep on Draco's side and it's all over.

Reason number two: Potter is a wizard.

This isn't bad per se, Draco doesn't have anything against wizardkind, or at least, not against good wizards. But his life is in the muggle world, he has no place among wizards anymore and spending time with a magical being...it would be like having a taste of home and then be forced to leave again. Spending time in Potter's presence would be like sparking a miniscule flame of hope in Draco's cold existence and let it grow until it warms Draco again, only to be extinguished when Potter inevitably leaves.