tw !! the following contains triggering topics such as abuse, murder, etc.
She looked so beautiful. Her s/t skin in the pale moonlight. It hurt me to see her like this, in pain, dry tears on her pillow case, bruises on her face from where he had hit her. Because how could anyone ever hurt her? How could anyone ever think about hurting her?
I hated him because of this. He was the reason for all her tears. He was the reason for all her pain. He was the reason for her bruises and scars. He was the source of all her problems. Things would be so much better if he was gone, and I was prepared to make sure he never bothered her again- or, anyone again, for that matter.
I would do it because I love her. And she loves me. She just doesn't know it yet. In fact, she probably doesn't even know I exist. Or that I'd been watching her. Her every move. Since the moment I'd first laid my eyes on her at the fair, I'd sworn that I'd always protect her. I'd watch her from her window, and when she fell asleep, I'd come in and lay next to her. Gently caressing her face, or occasionally playing with her hair. Of course she doesn't know this. I'm not ready to tell her either.. Surely she'd call the police, I thought.
One day, when I was ready, I'd tell her. After I had already introduced myself and we were close enough, I'd tell her "I love you. I've always loved you and I will always love you." I debated whether or not I should tell her about the watching-her-from-her-window thing; maybe when we're married and have kids. I'll bring it up like it was a funny story. Maybe one day, I'd even have enough courage to tell her about all the people I'd killed for her.
Anyone who caused her any pain at all- no, who even slightly bothered her, I killed them. I'd take them right into my basement and do it. Making sure they couldn't go anywhere or be heard by anyone. Then I'd simply kill them. I never felt guilty for it, either. I didn't feel guilty while killing them, I didn't feel guilty while hiding their body, I didn't feel guilty while cleaning up all of the blood stains, I never felt guilty. I always thought killing them was reasonable. It was okay because I did it for her. I did it because I loved her..
People say love makes you crazy, surely love could make you do this too, right?
1/30/2021, 11:08 pm .
