Antidote //Narry (Boyxboy)

1.

Walking through this hellhole everyday was suddenly becoming harder and harder,
But my main goal was to just get to English on time for once, which looks like that won't be the case this morning cause the fucking bell just rang.

If I could run faster through the halls I would but I'm already huffing n puffing from picking up the pace even a little.
I reach the class and a pang of fear ripples through my chest; the door is already closed.

Fuck.

At this point skipping class would be easier than everyone looking at me when I walk in but I need to pass this class to graduate and my gpa is practically shit already.

I quietly slip into class nibbling on my lip so much I think it's bleeding, walking to my seat in the back corner ridiculously fast trying to get there before my heart leaps out of my throat.

"Good morning Mr. Horan happy to see you finally come to class but you're late. Take your seat and make sure to be on time from now on."
Mr. Ross said silently dismissing me by continuing his lecture

I pivot on my heels letting my shoes sound like a dogs chew toy against the grain of the floor

Now Everyone is looking at me for sure, I can feel all the blood in my body rush to my face as I let out a whimper that was supposed to be a chuckle.
I'm so fucking stupid I should have just left, I shouldn't have come at all,
Fuck This was a mistake .

I feel the tears welling up in my eyes and I stumble to my seat, fumbling to get my stuff out of my back pack, quickly wiping away the tears that are slowly running down my red blotchy cheeks.

I told you, that you wouldn't be able to handle this today even mum said you weren't ready but you've already made a fool of yourself in the first 5 minutes your back haven't you?

"Hmm um Ni you alright?"
I hear before I turn around to see Louis leaning forward on his desk with a look of concern on his face, his eyes widen when he sees the tears running down my face, he uses his shirt sleeve to wipe away a couple before I turn around to try to get a hold on myself.

"Uh yea Lou I'll manage..I think "
I say fumbling to grab the zipper on bag to close it before I spill it all over the floor making an even bigger fool of myself;
But that easy task seems so hard at the moment.

I feel warmth spread through out my body at the feeling of louis rubbing my back soothingly for the remainder of the lecture to hopefully calm me down.

I feel a great sense of relief when the bell finally rings to dismiss class, I grab my bag and swing it over my shoulder trying to remove myself from the room as quickly as possible, i bolt down the stairs trying to reach the main entrance before the tears start flowing again.
My chest tightens and I know this will only get worse if I don't get out of here.
I wasn't ready to come back, I just wanna go home.

of course you do, you shouldnt have come here in the first place

"Ni wait up babe slown down!"
Louis calls trailing after me; pulling me out of my thoughts for a split second I look back to see him dodging the crowds of kids, quickly trying to catch up to me.

I just need to get outside, get out of this building, breathe some fresh air I don't know I just can't be here, my chest hurts,

I Can't breathe.

I burst through the front doors of the school bending over grabbing my knees gasping for air and desperately trying to catch my breath to relive the deep ache in my chest

Just breathe Niall, you're ok, you're fine,
I think to myself before Louis interrupts my thoughts once again by opening the huge front doors, peaking his head out to make sure I didn't completely scram off school property yet