Unspoken Thoughts

pretend

remember those times
when you were little
and played pretend?

you'd dress up as
a princess
pretending to be
Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty

or maybe you play family
with friends, someone
was mom, dad, sister, brother

playing pretend was fun

the older you get
you realize
this isn't fun

everyday I am constantly
pretending, I am okay
that I am happy with whatever

but im not, I never was
nor will be, because
I was never asked
what I think

you just say whatever you want
in life, like it would come to you
here's the thing,
life does not give you
what you want.

while im there
smiling, pretending
to agree with you
that it was okay with me.

and it's so hard
to actually tell you
what I think,
what I feel,
because I might not matter

all you think about is yourself
not anyone else
not the family
just you.

and we're all pretending to be okay with it.

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