Chapter 5

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Marcus PoV:
,,Ugh, I hate that sound" was the first thought on my mind in the morning, right after my alarm started beeping, reminding me I have to wake up for school. But then, the next thought made my heart warm up & filled my body up with energy. ,,I'm going to see her again". I quickly went to my bathroom and took a shower, brushed my teeth and now, I had to choose an outfit. ,,Today you'll pack all your courage up and talk to her, so you have to look good" I said quietly to my own reflection in the mirror. I wanted to look good, didn't want to it be too much tho. ,,Ah fuck it, I'll probably chicken out in the end anyway", was my next thought and I took a simple black hoodie and blue ripped jeans out of my closet and put them on. I paired it with some simple jewelry as a necklace and a few rings, took my bag and together with my brother Martinus, I started to walk to school. When we arrived at school, I went directly to her classroom instead of my own, pretending I was just hanging out with a friend of mine, who is in the same year as she is, which means two years under me. When I walked into the room, I saw her sitting there starring at her phone and without even trying, she hypnotized me. Her perfectly brushed, glossy, long, straightened, jet black hair was falling down her left arm, right into her heart-shaped face, covering her almond shaped, somehow emotionless and cold, blue eyes. Y/N Y/L/N. Probably the most beautiful and definitely the most mysterious girl in Trofors and of course, in case it wasn't obvious, my crush. I know it's kinda strange to have a crush on someone who you have never even properly talked to, but there's just something about that girl. Something special. Maybe it's the mystery, maybe it's the way how she never shows emotion, maybe it's the challenge of nobody being able to talk to her. I really have no idea what it was, that made me fall for her but it did. The only problem is that I'm a really shy guy, who had never really made a move on any girl, and even tho it's lame, so I hate admitting it, I in fact am probably the only person in the world who at the age of 19 hasn't even had his first kiss or a real relationship yet, but of course I don't admit that in front of my friends or classmates. Only my twin brother Martinus knows this secret of mine. The whole time that my friend was talking, I was completely lost in my thoughts, just admiring that dazzling girl, when suddenly my heart skipped a beat. Or actually multiple beats, actually it probably made a backflip. I guess she realized that I was starring at her, because now her eyes met mine and stayed in contact, something that has never happened before. My body froze in place for a second and as I started feeling a hot flush that creeped around my cheeks, I quickly looked away. ,,Fuck she caught me starting, now it's embarrassing, now she probably thinks I'm a weird stalker. Great" I said to myself in my thoughts. Somehow embarrassed I started walking out of the room, but I decided to have one last glimpse at Y/N, so I turned around but what I wasn't expecting was our eyes meeting once again. The last thing I saw before walking out, was her giving me a sarcastic smirk, rolling her eyes at me and turning away. Ouch.

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