trivia: me - l.jn

one: i will never be the one

tw: sa, rape

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(5) hurt.

that's all she could feel from the truth. the earth shattering climax that she expected. it was finally here. not in a way where she would have liked. but here she was.

(4) betrayal.

it started. the phone call was now their ticking bomb. the ticking bomb of their friendship that was reading the not so happy ending.

(3) no. no more.

"yeonji-ah.... please. say something at least."

(2) don't. not again. don't fall for it yeonji.

as much as she wanted to just shout and scream, and make the ladder person feel all their wrongdoings two times worse at the growing feeling she grew suspicious of, she didn't. instead, she gathered herself, stared at the camera of the face time call she was on, and gave a gentle smile. the smile spoke nothing while her eyes did all the talking.

"time."

was all she let out for the first time. the image of the person on the lit phone screen frowned.

"yeonji--"

"i just need time seonhee."

silence. it was tense, suffocating, and uncomfortable.

how many more fucking times.

"yeonji....i'm so sorry. i didn't mean for it to turn out like this, i feel like such a bad friend--" she began.

(1) how fucking pathetic.

"stop. i'm not listening. i don't intend to either."

stern but tired. that sure shut seonhee up as her line went silent.

"if you were fucking sorry you wouldn't have done again seonhee."

yeonji was still in the process of catching her breath, the news finally confirming all the lies she has grew into believing.

"i'm not fucking letting you fuck me over behind my back again."

(boom) that's it.

it all happened so fast. she just couldn't. she just wouldn't.

sobs. ugly cries. treachery. maim.

immediately after ending the call, yeonji couldn't help but break. but what was there to break when she was already broken. she didn't break, she now was shattered. too busy picking up the pieces to realize that she was still shattering and crumbling to the point of no return. it seemed so at the time. it seemed suitable.

everything. she just felt everything at once, she finally let loose. yeonji let up a wall for so long. the wall she continued to build to believe in the fantasy that maybe it was finally her. she finally wasn't gonna be just the character that walked around in the background.

for once, she was gonna be allowed happiness.

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"i said no, can't we just paint something? i asked you to come over because i really needed you." yeonji explained.

"fine." he answered.

satisfied, she sat on the floor of her room, beginning to lay out all the materials, happy that for once they weren't gonna sleep together. they were finally gonna do normal couple things, things that couples would do together.