Close To You

Chapter IV

January 11, 1939 | Pha Pun Dao
1st entry

dear diary,

         There's days were good and bad. Just days were we could look back on and think that "oh, it could have been worse." And then there were also days that were just horrible to us. Days where we wanted nothing more than to sleep in our bed and never woke up again, hoping that everyone would just suddenly forget that we could had even existed.

          Today was one of those days that I had felt diary. There's a soft throb in my eyes from the amount of crying because of the exhausted that I felt. I am pissed at everything.

        Today was hell, and I missed my home, my family, Lucas, and my patients. I want to go home but the Captain kept insisted and telling me otherwise that I can't do nothing. I am so lonely here, diary, in this lonely bed. The place here was so silent at night and there's no anyone who will hug me tight once that I got scared. I hope that this was just a dream and once that I wake up tomorrow morning, I am in my own bed, curled up while there's a saliva that keeps drooling all over my face, and there's my friend, Lucas, the one who'll always waking me up and cuddled me before getting up in bed.

[three hours earlier]
"So, you weren't aware that the King declared a Martial Law?" The Captain suddenly asked, he was now sat in a wooden chair in the middle.

They were still in the interrogation room, after Mix calmed down from his tantrums earlier, he was now sitting on the pavement, leaning his back against the wall.

He shakes his head and mutters, "No. I was too busy treating my patients in my clinic." He curled his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them. "Don't care about shitty news."

The Captain heaves a sigh as he crossed his arms over his chest, "Do you have any proof that you're a licensed doctor?"

"Ts," Mix rolls his eyes, he click his tongue in the roof of his mouth, "Probably, I have nothing but only brought myself."

The Captain huffs, "You had such a pretty face but you're a complete dick."

The doctor's head snap up, there's a gasp of shock that leaves on his mouth.

"Did this man just, just insult him and compliment him at the same time?!"

Mix breathed heavily, he needs to stop himself from getting up and pulling the Captain's collar. All he need to do is to shut himself up and sit still so he won't get any trouble again.

"Don't tell me, you and your friend didn't know that the Black Market was illegal too?" The Captain asks, "Ts, are you really that dumb?"

Mix stays quiet, staring at the floor, so the Captain continued, "You're lucky, if the soldiers didn't found you there, maybe your dead body will found in the riverside by now."

Mix suddenly remembered Lucas, his family and his patients back in Lampang. He trusted him, he was his childhood friend, his soulmate, like a brother to him. And to think that betraying him was far from he's thinking. No. Lucas would never do that to him. Was he? So he brushed it off.

Mix looks at the Captain, dejected, "Are you accusing my friend that he betrayed me?"

"You're the one who told that." Earth shook his head.