Terrified

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"There she is" he smiled as he let me into his house, I stood on my tiptoes and kissed his lips as he caressed my ass cheek through my leggings and hummed against my lips, when we separated I smiled up at him before walking towards the kitchen "how was work?"

"It was okay" I shrugged "how was your day?" I asked as I got myself a glass of water 

"Busy, but the usual" he leaned against the counter and folded his arms over his chest 

Six fucking months 

To say I was nervous to start this conversation would be a lie

I was fucking terrified 

"I got you something" he smiled "if you accept that is"

"Uh oh" I giggled "that sounds serious"

"It is" he nodded, he walked off for a moment and came back with a necklace box "you understand what a collar is?"

"Yes sir" 

"And what it symbolizes?"

"Yes" I nodded 

"But, you also know that I don't want to restrict you in anything you do"

"Yes sir" 

"So.." he opened the box "I want you to wear my collar. And I also wanted it to symbolize that though you are mine, you are also free to be yourself, and your own being away from me"

"Holy shit..it's beautiful" he smiled as he took it out of the box 

"It locks together in the back with a small screwdriver, you can't remove it yourself. Would you like to wear it?"

"I'd love to, but..there's something I need to tell you first" 

"Okay" he nodded and laid it back in the box, I didn't miss the way his body tensed at my words even though he was trying not to seem bothered by the fact that I hadn't jumped right in. I have never said no to him before, or ever really hesitated. 

"I don't.. I don't want to do this anymore" his body went rigid and he stared into my eyes, he nodded and looked away 

"Very well" he nodded and clenched his jaw tight 

"No" I shook my head "let me explain first. Please" he nodded "I don't want to be just your Sub, and I don't want to be your sugar baby anymore. I want to be your girlfriend. And I don't want to be paid for it" I shook my head "Namjoon, I've fallen for you, so fucking hard. And I love being your Sub, I don't want that to change, but my greedy self wants more. I want you, all of you" I let out a shaky breath "our rules stated that I was yours, and you were mine. And that you'd hoped eventually we'd enter a relationship outside of the dynamic, and I feel that we're at that point.. I've felt it for a while honestly. I thought you did too, but I waited for you to make that call because you're the Dom" 

He let out a sigh and smiled "My perfect little princess" he walked closer to me "yes, I am the Dom. But, you said so yourself, you hold the real power. I can only take what you'll allow me to have. I wasn't sure if you wanted me the same way I've wanted you. I wanted you to come to me" 

I relaxed as his hand cupped my cheek and I looked into his beautiful brown eyes 

"So, will you give that to me? Have I really earned that from you?"

"Yes sir" I smiled, he leaned down and kissed my lips softly 

"I'm honored. And I will do everything in my power to continue to earn that from you" I melted into his touch, and that soft voice he used when he spoke to me that dripped with honey, sugar, and everything sweet in the world that made my legs turn to jello and my brain malfunction. I felt myself already slipping into subspace, ready to please him "You're so beautiful" he kissed my lips "You're perfect baby" he kissed me again "so perfect, and mine. Perfect for me and only me" he kissed me a little harder and I lost my breath

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