The Hookup (Ariana/You)

Chapter 23

"And our last chip goes to Y/N Ledger, who is one month clean as of today!" Joan, the rehab leader, said. I stood up as everyone clapped. Everyone came to see me get my chip. I smiled and walked to the front. Joan hugged me, and I hugged her back. I took the chip and stood at the podium.

"I don't have a speech prepared or nothing, but this is crazy cause I've been drinking or smoking or snorting something since I was about six, so this is very important to me. I'm glad that I've been able to stay strong. And I'm glad that I've had my family right by me the whole time. I love you guys. Alright anyway, here's to many many more chips!" I said. Everyone clapped again, and I sat back down.

We were dismissed from the meeting ten minutes later. Ariana drove home in silence as I looked at her.

"What?" She asked.

"I don't know. You're just pretty." I said.

"Oh stop it." She said.

"I'm serious. You're perfect." I said.

"Thank you, baby." She said.

"Hurry up and get home." I said leaning back in the seat.

"We are not having sex before exactly six weeks. You need to heal." Ariana warned.

"Ain't nobody tryna have sex. I just want to kiss you." I said.

"You can kiss me while I drive." She said pointing to her cheek.

"Nah I want a real kiss." I told her. She hummed.

"I actually want to talk to you about something when we get home." She said. I groaned loudly.

"I haven't cheated on you and I haven't done drugs, so what am I in trouble for?" I said.

"No you're not in trouble at all. I just want to talk while we're in the house." She said.

"Okay." I said. We made the rest of the drive in silence. When we got in the house, we went straight up to our room. I laid in bed.

"So I've been thinking about this for a while now." She said.

"How long?" I asked.

"Like I don't know since you've been in the hospital." She said.

"Okay continue." I nodded.

"Basically I'm not trying to say I want to try for one or anything, but I think I want to stop my birth control. Like I don't think we should start aiming for a baby, but if it happens I want it to be with you." Ariana said. I stayed quiet. "What do you think about that?"

"I just got a brand new heart and a one month sober chip from narcotics anonymous. You think I'm ready to be a parent? I can't even take care of myself." I said.

"You take care of Theo and Harrison." She insisted.

"Yeah, but not full time. They just sleepover sometimes. But I'm not their parent." I said.

"But wouldn't you want to have one with me? A little us running around?" She asked.

"Well sure, but I don't know if right now is the right time. I mean we aren't even married. My parents would kill me if you got pregnant before we were married. Like it would be bad." I said.

"Well I mean I wouldn't be pregnant by tomorrow." She said.

"The way you looking right now, you might." I laughed.

"I'm being serious, Y/N. I just want to stop taking my birth control." Ariana said.

"Where is this even coming from?" I asked.