Dear Heart, Why Him? *Complete*

Chapter 36: No More

I was walking around at the hall of the hospital back and forth as many scary things coming into my mind.My whole body is shaking. The nurses told me to calm down but who would be calm at a time like this? A man took a bullet for you! Which part of my brain can accept that?

The things coming in my mind are scaring me. I don't know what should I do? What if he die? What if he didn't make it?

But there is this one thing in my mind right now that is really scaring me..

This all my fault.

Why does Paul have to be so stupid and reckless?! Saving me like that is really a complete lunatic. This is my problem not his so why does he always mind it?

Still, that heroic thing he did. Makes me love her more but so is the pain. It hurts me to see him to do things for me. That is my bullet. Not his.

He should be home now drinking his expensive wine, flirting with random girls but he choose to waste it on me even thought he already knows the consequence if he messed with Douglas

Urg! Just hearing his name right now makes me want to puke. I hate him so much. So much that I could kill him in this hospital for what he had done.

Now, I am waiting outside the Operating room waiting for the doctor to come out

My feelings lighten when I saw Ethan running, looking for me "Laura?"

My eyes waters. Oh God. I ran into Ethan's open arms and I cried in his chest, hugging him tighter. You know the feeling of that you really need something at a time like this and the relief you felt when someone came comforting you. That feeling is one of the best.

Ethan was hugging me in his arms, like he was comforting a child. Since he was taller than me, my head was buried in his chest and he cupped my head and whispered comforting words in my ear.

"E-Ethan, this is my fault. I should have got that bullet. Not him. He doesn't have to die like this just because he saved me" I whimper. Crying out all the dark pain I had.

"Sshhh, this is not your fault. Don't you ever think of that. He saved you because he loves you so much. And he is not going to die. Paul is strong. He won't give up that easily" he whispered in my ear and kissed me in the head. "Stop crying. He is not going to die"

But I still can't stop crying.

A few minutes later, Paul's parents came, rushing. Zelda, his stepmother.

"Dear, how's my son?" The tall man which is I think Paul's Dad. He looks so worried

"He is still inside" I answered then I cried again "I am so sorry, sir. I didn't mean to happen. This is all my fault. Please forgive me. I didn't want him to take that bullet from me, I should be in his place"

His Dad's eyes looks hurt too but they look at me softly "It is not your fault, child" he smiled weakly "This is not your fault. No one wants this to happen except for that evil man who shot him"

I nod my head, but my eyes were on the floor, wiping my tears away. I saw my clothes and it has blood of Paul.

"I know Paul...I know that he is willing to give his life for you" Zelda said, putting her arm around me

"He told us that he is willing to give his life just to save the woman he loves" His Dad murmured, but his face is strong. Now I know where Paul gets his power in hiding emotions

Willing to give his life just to save the woman he loves.

Paul, why do you have to be so selfish? This should be a problem that the two of us should be facing. Not only you. But I am here also.