Will they? || Rudy pankow

Here it comes

Y/n POV

Your whole body felt like it was on fire and drowning in ice-cold water like-wise. You couldn't remember the last time somebody made you feel like that. The thought that this wasn't actually real was pressed to the very corners of your mind as you stared into Rudy's eyes, his shirtless form hovering above you. God, he was gorgeous. When he looked at you like that and touched your bare skin with his slightly calloused warm hands, it was too easy to forget all the cameras and people around you. But all this was just in your head and you were playing your part just as he did. How you wished in that moment it would be true.

When you got the call that you got the role for JJ's love interest in the second season of Outer Banks you were ecstatic. You had watched the first season in a couple of days and already fell in love in it and when your agent had mentioned that you might be considered for a part in the next season you couldn't contain your joy.

A couple weeks later you were on set and met the rest of the cast. They were all lovely and welcoming to you but you couldn't help but feel like a bit of an outsider since they had already grown close to a real family in the first season. But you made the best of the situation and couldn't be happier to be surrounded by all these amazing human beings. You shared an apartment with the Maddies in Charleston and you girls had the most of fun after shooting was over. The boys were just as lovely and sweet and you couldn't believe how you got so lucky.
And then there was Rudy. Already during your chemistry read, the tension could be grasped all through the room. It was clear to all the casting directors that you would be a perfect fit. Rudy and you hadn't spend a lot of time together outside of shooting except when the others were around too. You got along great though, a bit too great.
Every time the two of you ended up alone you couldn't help but feel nervous and your heart was beating three times as fast. You told yourself that it was just a crush, seeing that he was ridiculously handsome. You both were professionals after all.
When you started filming romantic scenes however the feelings got worse, way more intense. You were sure he felt it just as much as you did. After every screamed 'cut' you couldn't even look at each other because the tension was running too high.
You knew he was just playing JJ and you were playing Y/C/N (Your characters name)but it all felt way too real when he stared deep into your eyes with his baby blues.
You kept it friendly and platonic all through shooting but today would be yet another challenge. Today would be the first kiss scene that would quickly lead to a more intimate scene in the bedroom. You tried to not let it bother you too much but your nerves were running high nonetheless.
"Okay Y/N, Rudy! You just had an emotional fight, your feelings are simmering right underneath the surface, you're screaming at each other and then..." Valerie Weiss made a dramatic pause, "JJ kisses Y/C/N passionately!" She grinned at the both of you.
You took a deep breath and gave Rudy a hesitant smile when the two of you got into position.
"You okay?" He inquired kindly and squeezed one of your hands softly.
"Yeah..." You sighed and smiled genuinely, "We'll rock this, right?"
"Oh absolutely," He grinned and winked at you playfully. This didn't really help the butterflies erupting in your stomach.
You nodded and waited for the 'action' and acted out your scene flawlessly.
"I'm just trying to understand, JJ! Why do you always push me away?" You screamed at Rudy, or JJ in this case, and tried to convey as much desperation as you could.
"It is none of your business Y/C/N, that's why. You can't fix everybody, you know? Especially not me!" Rudy screamed right back at you, tears prickling at the corners of his eyes and you had to admire his acting skills.
"I don't want to fix anything. When are you gonna get it into your thick stubborn head that I care about you?" You were moving close to him, hands fisted in his shirt as you tried to get him to look at you. One hand went up to his cheek, "JJ, look at me," You whispered softly and could feel your own tears rolling down your cheeks.
Rudy's eyes met yours, the colour of the ocean looking back at you with such intensity that your breath caught. It felt like time stood still as you stared into each others eyes, like you were the only two people in the universe. Damned be all the cameras around you and people on set.
He nodded once, as if preparing himself for what came next. Faster than you could process his hands were on your cheeks and he pulled you close to him.

Lips crashed on lips and you could feel the sparks literally igniting between the two of you. Your mouths moved desperately, always trying to get closer and closer. Your hands wandered around his neck, into his hair and pulled slightly. His mouth opened and his tongue slipped out to caress your bottom lip to silently demand entrance which you granted.
Kissing Rudy was like feeling fireworks in the place where your heart should be. He tasted of sweet lemonade and mint gum that the both of you had chewed before the scene, joking about it. But this, this was no joking matter anymore. This was a feeling you had longed for all your life and you couldn't believe you had finally found it. Kissing Rudy was pure ecstasy.
"Guys! Guys, I said cut!" The director's voice roped you back into reality and the two of you finally broke apart, catching your breath.

You were still entangled in each other, hands everywhere they should not be in this second, and breathed heavily as your foreheads rested against each other, eyes locked.
Rudy's pupils were blown, darkening his usually so bright eyes into dark dangerous hues, and his cheeks were flushed a beautiful rosy red. You were certain you must've looked quite similar.
"Well, if that wasn't a kiss!" You heard Chase celebrating from the side and the both of you finally broke apart.
Too late you realised that you hadn't even heard Valerie when she screamed 'cut' the first time. The embarrassment of the situation slowly crept up on you. But this time you didn't look away from Rudy, quite the opposite. And he was staring right back at you, eyes wide and mouth slightly agape.
"That was sheer perfection! I think we actually already got it!" Jonas stated after a discussion on the scene.

You weren't sure if you were happy about nailing it on the first try or sad because that meant no more kisses for now. All you knew was that you craved Rudy's hands back on you and his lips locked to yours. By now you realised that you were entering dangerous waters.