love of a friend

chapter 1

"Its been 8 months sends his death.I haven't been the same.mark Jones very time I near that name.something inside me.just want to break loose and leave out of me"." Mike?are you okay sweetie?"I looked up.it was my mother."yes,mother I'm okay"."I understand this is still hard for you"."um,mom can you take me marks family funeral.I was looking at her with sad eyes.huh uh,okay but I'm picking you up after.okay that would be fine with me.when we got there I didn't even want to get out of the car.in the car I could feel him next to me.like he wanted me to go just for him.then my mom put her hand on my shoulder."you don't have to go and you know that"."I know mom but I'm doing it for mark".then I got out of the car.walk to marks house.Anthony was saying something and I heard him."I know how much this hurts you".then we walk up to the house but before I went in.I look back and saw my childhood with mark.all the times even when we said"that we would be friends anymore".when mark said"he saw me kiss he's girlfriend".even though I said"I didn't,I was just trying to help her on her homework".we didn't talk or call each other for a whole 2 months.until he's girlfriend said"i didn't kiss her,and she was trying too kiss me".I turned to Anthony and said"I just don't believe he's gone".I knew what he means."mike I know its not your fault,things like this just happen"."I just couldn't believe it had to be mark.can't do this I can't let go of mark.I'm sorry I gotta go".then I step off the pouch and walk away from the mermeioes of me and mark.it was just to hard for me.I couldn't even look back because it would be too painful."I'm sorry mark,I just can't let you go.we promise brothers forever".I walk home alone,I stopped at the edge of my pouch.I look at the door I just couldn't go in.without mark my life is falling apart.I look over my shoulder making sure no-one was following me. I heard the front door up but when I got up to the door.they look at me like they didn't even know me.I step back and they close the door in front of me.leaving me out in the dark and cold.