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Kongpob's POV. Yes I sneaked into his diary and this is what's written there.
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He wanted someone who could be his companion in the long journey from home to college. I never thought that he would be interested in me. But then, we seem to be more than just friends". The conversation wasn't limited to hi hello and regular chats, it was becoming more personal. From the hazing stress; to not getting pinkmilk at the store! He shared everything with me.
I made sure that I won't cross the thin line, but whenever I gave him a bottle of his favorite pinkmilk, his smile was just wow, enough to light up entire world, just as his name; Aioon, and my braincells shouting and telling me tht "Dude, this isn't just friendship."
He didn't come to hazing meetings for a few days, and I swear it doesn't feel the same. His voice. The way he shouts "Kongpob 0062" is what I was missing. Few days later he came. His face was fresh, and from his glow,no one could tell that this same guy had run 100 laps around the ground last week and had almost broken his leg.
He used to call my classmates "Nong", but he always used "0062" to call me, I don't know why? I was okay with it.
I was falling for him, more & more everyday. I didn't want to freak him out by proposing. I started giving him a few hints and flirting a bit. After gathering, I asked him "You seem to enjoy punishing me! And people tease someone when they like them!! So..do you like me?." He said "No". But knowing how firm and loud his voice was, that "no" seems to be gentle. He didn't get angry. I took it as a level up in this "just friends" game that we were playing.
Few months hanging out together and we are at the comfy level, where he holds my hand while watching horror movies, and I hold his; while crossing streets.
During the wedding of our senior, I came out of the venue to take a walk, and I saw P'Arthit standing at the gate, waiting for someone. I thought it must be some of his friends. But a few seconds later my phone rings and I was on the 9th cloud realizing that, it's me. He was waiting for me. When suddenly Bright and Prem snatch his phone from behind and start teasing him by my name.
Yes, we have reached that level now. Our names were taken together.
KongArthit are so close to each other? Are they dating? They always seem to go home together? I saw them at a cafe! They both look so adorable! .
All these kinds of gossips went through my ears as I was passing through the hallway.
For everyone, we were a couple now. But he never said anything to me. I thought maybe he loves me, but he doesn't want to tell me! Or he just hasn't realized it yet! or what if he doesn't like me! But I haven't confessed my feelings yet. Maybe I was a bit scared or just didn't get that perfect timing. So,I named our "just friend" relation as "secret relation" now.
Whole night I thought about him and decided on a date to propose to him. That day came very soon! Yes, tomorrow eve. I went to a cafe where he usually gets his favourite drink from. I stopped a few steps away from the door. A girl. Same dress of our university. She is P'Namtarn from another faculty. They seem to be close, the way they hug each other. I knew it was wrong to judge someone. But at that time, the worst thoughts jump into your mind. The chocolate I bought for him started melting under the sun in; in my hand, and I stood there holding pieces of my heart for a few minutes and then left. That moment I realized it wasn't a college crush or attraction, it was love.
All my hope and excitement got crushed into seconds.
I was "just friend" for him na,
and I stayed as "just a friend" only……
It's been a few days since that incident happened. P'Arthit was still spending his time with me as usual, as if nothing happened! Or maybe, for him its nothing! But my whole world seems to be upside down. I never mentioned anything about that day to him, so he has no idea about it. I patted my heart and said "Aall iz well". Yes, it's the famous line from an Indian movie called "3 Idiots", based on engineering life which we both had watched cuddling with each other. I said "Aall iz well" and my heart replied "Ok bro, lets see!"
I pass through corridors and still I hear people gossiping about us. But somehow those butterflies in my stomach don't do somersaults now. I had accepted the reality now and I was okay with it. I still gave him a smile during our talks, but when he suddenly mentions that girl, nothing felt right.
One day P'Arthit came and showed me her pic, and said "Please don't tell anyone I want to give her surprise" and started giggling. He also had written a poetry for her, and still after being together for a year, he hadn't even seen my handwriting yet. This love triangle was giving me such a pain.
Weeks turned into months and we had reached our exam days. I saw him crying in the corner of the library. I went to P'Knott to ask if everything was okay. What I heard made me laugh so hard that the librarian got angry at me for breaking the silence, and P'Arthit wiped his tears and looked at him, giving that brightest smile which I love. P'Knott said his childhood friend Namtarn got engaged to Jay a few months ago, and now they both are shifting to Korea after this semester ends. Those 3 had been best buddies and living together in the same flat as roommates, so it's just making Arthit sad that he has to live alone now.
I went to P'Arthit and whispered in his ears "Wanna go on lunch with me? Pinkmilk will be my treat." He smiled.
He told me about their friendship while sobbing. His nose was red as cherry. He was looking cute though. But I do understand that suddenly saying goodbye to friends is not easy. It was the first time when he was sad, and I was happy!! thinking that maybe, we can be more than "just friends".....!?
Now those gloomy days are over, butterflies started jumping all over again. I didn't want to lose the second chance that I got. I gave him some time to come over this sad phase, and on the sidetrack our love story was moving at a slow pace. And we got busy preparing for exams.
After exams, I decided to try my luck again. But I wasn't sure how lucky I was in this? It feels like P'Arthit is just a few steps away from me. I kept walking closer and closer, and he didn't even step back. But there's something! I don't know what!! I can't reach him.
I still haven't confessed yet. But suddenly his behavior changes. From 0062 and Kong,he went to Khun and Nong. No, I don't want to be his Nong, I want to stay as his Kong forever. Our late night movies got reduced, texts seem to fade away. I don't know how much distance I should keep from him. Infact, I don't want the distance between us. I want to just tell him that "I love you P'Arthit."
Next morning I went to our usual cafe and waited for him. He didn't come. Next day I came again, he was still not there. Third day I finally saw him. This time there wasn't a U-turn to feelings! It's either now or never. As I was about to speak, he said… this is my last day with you.
I am moving out of this city to help my dad in business. We may not meet again together.
I was shocked. I thought we were gonna talk about our forever, and P'Arthit literally said that, no tomorrow,this is the last day. He hugged me and went away saying that he has packing to do.
It seems like deja vu. Everything falling apart, all over again!!
But you know what, God finally granted my wish. I was able to say I love you.
Yes, when he hugged me for the last time, I said "Love you P'Arthit. Happy journey, take care", and he also replied "Love you,buddy".
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Hope yll liked this mini story!!?
