Flickering love (Mashiro x Cheated Male reader)

Love or hate?

Y/n pov

Mashiro and I returned home choosing to go out the next day. Sighing I took of my shirt then laid back on my bed. Staring at my hand I closed my eyes, remembering everything Mashiro had done for me. I couldn't process it let alone understand why;why someone like her would waste so much time helping me? To the rest of the world I was a freakish weirdo; some asshole everyone including karma couldn't help but attack.  So why does she try to seem so honest towards me? 

Y/n:(Mind) Why the hell does she act like she cares about my problems?  I refuse to believe it's all true...especially after that naive talk of hers earlier.

(Flashback)

3rd person pov

While Y/n drove home with Mashiro she stared at him;the light of the moon reflecting from his own eyes.

Mashiro:  Y/n? Can I ask you something?

Y/n: Yeah?

Y/n turned back to her seeing her smiling at him before spoke.

Mashiro:  I know most people don't like you...but you know I'll always be here;to help you find peace right?

Y/n: Well then your efforts are going to be in vain Mashiro. 

Mashiro looked taken aback by Y/n's words before his eyes filled with a emotionless stare. Turning back to the road Y/n spoke coldly and bluntly.

Y/n; People like me finding peace is a utter fantasy. A lie that only the naive take any stock in. Life treats no one soul equally,that's just truth. Others flourish  while others are left in poverty. Some people ruin the world while others fight unwinnable battles to fix it. Some pretend they know what pain is to seem strong while  others know  real pain and accept it.

Mashiro: T-Then what kind of person are you-

Y/n: I'm the kind that don't win...we don't get happy endings only temporary happiness. Bad luck has followed me since I was only a child. You may have the luxury of being blind to it all but I don't. Humans are the most selfish and the worst kind of creatures to ever have lived on this world.

Mashiro: What do you mean Y/n.. Mashiro doesn't understand.

Y/n; Just really look around you Mashiro and you'll see it. We are hateful and it takes something effecting our whole race;for anyone to bat an eye. We are spiteful to anyone who is different and mask it by putting up fronts of "awareness". Have you seen a creature in the animal kingdom turning against a group simple for a different skin color? We go to war over the most trivial of matters. Greed,wanting to be seen as right, and we even fight on social media for the sole purpose of our own comfort. To make it worse we force our beliefs on the next generation, ensuring it'll only worsen the world further.

Mashiro:(Mind) Y/n....

Y/n:  I suppose if a god does exist he has more than the right to wipe us away.  Mashiro tell me are you really that naive as to think you can help me?

Mashiro sat in silence trying to process everything Y/n had told her. Before he knew it she nodded with a stern look in her eyes.

Mashiro: I know almost everyone has hurt you so greatly but I refuse let you feel alone! Mashiro loves you so much and i'll give everything to let you feel true happiness!

(flashback end)

Y/n pov

Y/n:(mind) Why can't I shake her from my mind let alone find hate for her?

 Cursing to myself I  slammed my fist against a pillow then tried to sleep with one last thought

Y/n;(mind) Mashiro.....what are you trying to do to me?