Jealousy, Jealousy

•burden•

A/N hii, sorry I was kinda on a hiatus and I will be on and off lol sorry but hope you like the really long chapter!

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She looked up to the blue-haired boy in sheer confusion and asked, "Who are you?"

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--Mari's pov--

Papa drove me home while telling me what happened. I frowned. I really got hit by a car that easily? Was I that clumsy?

"What matters sweetheart, is that now you're ok." I chuckled. My good old papa. I must've had him worried then. I apologize for it.

"It's n-not your fault." When I looked up to Papa, I saw tears falling from his eyes. I wiped them away and forced him to smile. 

"We're all ok now, Papa. It doesn't matter what happened in the past; look at the present."

Papa simply looked away and continued driving.

When we got home, Papa looked uneasy. Like he wanted to tell me something. I knew him very well. 

"Papa, what is it? I know something's on your mind." Papa looked up to me and started sobbing.

"I should've told you before dear, I'm sorry! But- your Maman is sick. She's in the hospital currently." I nodded and continued stuffing food in my mouth. Then I realized what Papa had said. I spat out the food and yelled, "WHAT?" I knew it. I knew it I knew it I-

I ran upstairs and slammed my door.

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I had somehow fallen asleep at 5pm. Tikki woke me up at 9pm for an akuma attack. Ugh, I really didn't need this right now.

I transformed into the prominent Ladybug and jumped next to Chat Noir to defeat the akuma.

After the fight, I was exhausted and my eyes were tinted red from crying previously. If Chat Noir noticed, he was pretty good at not acknowledging others' feelings. I frowned. I needed to know if he-

"Chat Noir, do you love me?" I blurted out. I stared at his unreadable face and waited for a response. After what seemed like forever, I finally got one.

"Ladybug, there's only a certain amount of chances you can give someone in life. I tried for several years, but I never got a positive response back from you. I'm glad anyway, now I have a better girlfriend than you could've ever been. As my civilian self, of course, but that doesn't matter. All that matters is we're both happy in the end." I choked on my tears. But I wasn't happy! I'm sorry my kitty, I realized too late but I love you...

But I loved Adrien. Who did I really love? Adrien or Chat Noir? I couldn't choose one. It's not like I ever would be able to choose one anyway. They both hated me, had girlfriends, and were happy with them...

It's like all of a sudden I didn't even exist anymore. Heck, even Alya had Nino. Who did I have? Honestly, for the longest time, I felt I could have a chance with Adrien, if I had spoken up before. But now it was too late and I was heartbroken. It felt as if my world was falling apart.

Hearing it from Adrien hurt enough, but even my kitty? The one who used to love me so fiercely no matter how many times I rejected him? That was true love. At least until he fell for another girl and his heart turned bitter as well.

I couldn't do this anymore. I swung home and cried in bed until I fell asleep.

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My alarm went off and I somberly got up. I changed into my usual clothes and sighed. Was life even worth living at this point? The love of my life rejected me, both of them, Maman was dying in the hospital, and I had to face everyone at school yet again. I know life is supposed to have its ups and downs, but how will I recover from this bump? Even destiny would be confused at this point.

When I got to school, I tried to look for Alya, but couldn't find her. I sighed and sat down in a corner of the school. Then, I silently cried.

I felt a tap on my back. I looked up to expect Alya, when it was actually Mylene. I saw that Alix was with her as well. I wiped my tears and asked them why they were here.

"Oh? We just wanted to remind you of how big of a loser you are. You bullied Lila, got into a car accident like a dork, and now you're crying because you didn't get AdRiEn." Alix said. I couldn't believe what she had just said. She really believed Lila over someone she had known for years?

"Also you're pretty ugly haha." Said Mylene. I looked down. I knew that Lila's beauty wasn't my lack, but it really felt the weight of all of it was on my back. 

I saw Juleka in the corner, with Rose behind her. Maybe they were on my side. I slightly smiled. But alas, one of them wasn't.

Juleka hesitated, then walked up to me and said, "Not cool, Marinette. Lila really is so much better than you." Tears were threatening to spill out. I remembered when Juleka used to call me Marie and I called her Jules. We were such good friends until the day Lila walked into school. She had ruined everything for me.

Rose walked up to me too, and I expected to hear foul words from her mouth as well, but instead she helped me up. Shakily, I grabbed her hand and stood up. Then, she looked directly at Juleka.

"Juleka, I fell in love with the kind personality you had, despite what people wrongly thought about you. But that side of you is gone now, and I don't think we can be together anymore." I gasped. Julerose had been together for several years now! It couldn't end like that...

I got up and walked away, and sat in a corner of the bathroom as I gently sobbed.

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I felt a tap on my back. I looked up to expect Alix and Mylene again, when it was actually Chloe.  I hadn't talked to her in some time.

Chloe looked into my eyes and hers softened. She deserved the world really, she was so kind. Chloe sat down next to me.

"What's wrong?" 

"Nothing."

"Oh please, like I would fall for that. Don't be ridiculous and tell me what's going on."

I hesitated. Should I tell Chloe? About Maman, Adrien, Chat Noir, Alix and Mylene, Julerose? I held my head in my hands. This burden was too much to process. I decided to tell Chloe only about Maman.

"Chloe... my maman is in the hospital... I don't know what to do-" I started crying in her shoulder. Then, I wiped my tears. This was too embarrassing. 

Chloe simply hugged me. It meant everything to me, even if it was just an action. Actions have more impact than words, after all.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw blue. I looked up and there he was again, the blue-haired boy. I closed my eyes and tried to remember anything about him, to no avail. I opened my eyes and there he was, staring right at me. 

Who was that boy?

A/N This took so long but finally here's ch 6! This chapter was 1,243 words so definitely was a stretch. Bye besties and bug out!