Always alone

Chapter 1

Scarlett's POV
Every morning I wake up early just so I can take care of my baby girl. I lost my husband a few days after Raine was born. He was actively deployed over seas, but something went wrong resulting in his death. The news was devastating for me as my sweet Raine will never know her father. There's one thing I have not tried explaining to her and that is I am a soldier.

I sit down at the table sipping my coffee reading the letter I received a few days ago. I have yet to mention to my sweet Raine that I have been deployed over seas and won't see her for awhile. The military will provide her with a home to stay in with her grandma but I don't know how everything will go day by day. After finishing my cup of coffee I look at the time 7:00 am I set my cup on the counter and go to wake my beautiful baby girl.

I can't believe I was blessed with this sweet little girl I walk quietly into her room "Raine sweetie it is time to wake up" she gently rubs her eyes. She has her dads eyes I feel her wrap her little arms around my neck before relaxing once more. I gently lift her up and place her on the floor "sweetie what would you like to wear to your first day of school" she looks at me with wide teary eyes. After a few seconds she finally answers me she's so shy when she's nervous. I help her into the little blue dress and fix her hair.

She looks up at me very puzzled then the question I didn't want to answer comes "mommy why are you dressed like the picture of daddy? Are you bringing daddy home?" She's so excited thinking about her daddy, but this is the most difficult thing to face for me. I set her on my lap and gently rub her back "sweetie mommy has to go away for awhile, but I will talk to you every night. Your daddy would love you sweetie, but I can't bring your daddy back your daddy's far away" I look down at her after saying this. Of course this is hard for me seeing her cry I feel her hold onto me tightly before she says " no mommy don't go" I hug her one last time. Little did I know all this would happen this soon.

Raine's POV
"No mommy don't go" I hold on as tight as I can not letting my mommy go. She explained everything to me about being a soldier meaning I won't see her for awhile. I lost my daddy I can't lose my mommy too. Mommy starts brushing my hair off my shoulders and rubs my back "my sweet Raine I have something for you" I sniffle then look up at her. I feel mommy place something gently around my neck "Raine your daddy gave this to me" she gently opens it on one side is a picture of my daddy then on the other side a picture of mommy. As fast as I can I turn around and bury my face in her neck and cry she gently carries me to the car "Raine I will always be with you no matter what baby girl" I nod she helps me buckle and off to school I go.

As soon as I get to school I'm even more nervous and realize this is my last moment with mommy for awhile. She parks and unbuckles me then bends down "Raine sweetie your a fighter your stronger than you know I love you" I can feel the tears running down my face " I love you too mommy" she wipes away my tears. Taking a deep breath mommy looks at me "let's go inside sweetie" I nod and hold her hand not wanting to let go. We get inside and walk to my class we stop at the door knowing where this leads I hug her tightly "mommy please no don't leave" tears rolling down my face once more. She sighs and picks me up embracing me and places her hand on my heart "no matter where I am baby girl I'm always right here in your heart" I sniffle while she wipes the tears away once more.

Mommy sets me down and before I know it she's gone. It's the last time I will see her for awhile. My first thought when mommy left is will I ever see her again?