Like a Drunk Friday Night

Hold Tight

Why is it ever sence that moment I saved Kaylie from Harry a second time thats all I can think about? 
"Why did you even bother? She dosen't want you." My subconcous says to me. I hope he gets a paper cut reading his book. Contimplating in class is the best, Until they call on you and they never did. Maybe that's why I wasen't doing all to well. The bell rang and I left class for lunch. Mia texted me saying she wants to eat lunch with me. I wasen't sitting with Mia again I would rather trip on a purple dildo in the hall. So I ignored it. I got my lunch and went to a quiet alone spot. It was cold but not that cold. Mia texted again and asked where I was. I didn't answer I wanted to eat my lunch in quiet. Then she texted me again saying that Kaylie wanted to talk to me. As much as it hurts I didn't answer. God shes so annoying. Litrally I feel so damn tired, I want to quit. That makes no logical sence to anyone whos "normal" but people my age will understand. I still don't know why I haven't told anyone about how Harry almost raped Kaylie. I'm such a nob all the damn time. What is wrong with me. God I wanna kill myself so damn much. "Go ahead see how many people will care." My subconcous says. God damn can I get a new subconcous. I head off to class because I can't be alone anymore. Ill talk myself into jumping off the damn roof. The day went on and the more I though about killing myself the more I wanted to do it. God I am insain. When school finished up I went home right away. I didn't want to bother with anyone else. When I got home I grabbed my notebook and climbed onto my roof and sat down. I looked out over my naborhood. I could see alot from where I was. I stood up carefully and looked down. That was a long way down and that would probubly not even kill me unless I went head first. If I wanted to do this I would need some place higher. I slipped and fell and grabbed the roof in a panic. Managing to save myself. My adrenlling was pumping. I though it was over for me. I climbed off the roof and went inside and for once did my homework. I had a pretty regular night from then on out. Other then the few times I had to ignore Mia. I had my dinner in my room and read my book. It hit around 11:43 when I drifted off to sleep.