THAT girl is a lie

Alone in my room, rejected by some girl group I really wanted to be a part of. Fighting with my dad over some stupid stuff. Almost starting my period, at least I hope because I really cannot deal with that potential stress right now. I vowed, to myself and the whomever gets in the way, that I'm going to become who I always wanted to be. Not this kind, over emotional girl with a huge fear of missing out, always wanting to be a part of everything and changing herself to be liked.

No, I'm not her anymore because like a wise person once said: ''nice girls don't get the corner office.''

I usually despise quotes like these. But this one is different. It makes me want to use my full potential and live the life I've always wanted. I'm not going to sit around and wait for change to magically happen this time. I'm going to do it. Just for me, for no one else. Just this once I'm not going to think about others in this decision. This is mine and it will forever be. I will probably don't like myself tomorrow morning for have future me try and wake up at a reasonable time and actually do productive stuff during my day, but I don't give a fuck.

I will never be THAT girl, and I'm very aware of that. But I will be the best version of me and the version I will like even more. That is what being that girl is all about to me.