"Your hair's so thick that it could be a cloud!", "Why do you look freakishly huge?!", "Why are you still even here? ...Joke!" And the offensive so-called humor goes on and on all throughout my entire life. One day, I swore to myself that I'll never judge anyone else again. And then another day of promises came. Another one, another, and still not the final day, another one came. The thought that this change I am looking for could never happen didn't occur to me. From the start, I already concluded that I'd be successful about it. I never knew that even with the look I unknowingly give people, I hurt them. I am starting to fail just as I pass by the person I don't like. On my mind, I think bad about them. Then here comes a night where I just start to realize how beastly I am becoming each day...and later regret what I just mentally did.
I can never resist not being a pest to anyone. I know that to the people who are affected, you want me to stop. When you're in my place though, even if you already want to put an end to this, you can't. You just can't. No matter how hard you try, there just seems to be this secret covenant where you need to be an annoyer to everyone. Everything's possible, they say. But let's refer to this witty quote I read a long time ago...
"Whoever said everything's possible...never tried slamming a revolving door." Now, you know what I mean. There are just some things in this world that you can NEVER avoid. You may shut up today, but tomorrow, it'll be another day of electrifying happenings. Just as they say, things could turn out bad.
For those whom I've hurt with and/or without knowing, here's something that could MAYBE get you thinking about me appearing so aggressive; I write in my defense because I feel weak, if that makes you any better :) #confession
