(Week later)
I felt like shit.. not happy.. sad.. I guess I was depressed I mean I've been depressed for a while I also started dating this girl.. her name is cara.. she- she is controlling
Honestly I dont give a fuck at this point..
I let out a sigh and turn over in bed
To check my phone
Chris: coming in today bud?
Me: idk
I turn it off and close my eyes
Fuck I'm so tired
I just wanna sleep longer or forever that would probably feel nice
My phone goes off so I check my messages again
Chris: come onn
Me: fine
I turn it off and put it in my pocket
While getting up cara comes in the room
"Hi" she says
"Hey.." I say
"Where you going?" She asks
"Uhm.. I'm going In today" I say
"No your not" she says
I roll my eyes and grab my shoes
I put them on and walk over to my closet
"Il see you later" I say while grabbing a beast hoodie
"No" she says pulling me by the collar of my shirt "fucking let go of me" I say
"I'm not letting you go" she says
I push off and hear my shirt rip
"Fuck" I say
I look up at her
"Leave.. il see you later" I say
I walk out my room and head towards the front door
(Time skip)
I walked in the studio and saw everyone
"CHANN CHANNNNN" jimmy says walking up to me
"Hey" I say
"How are you?" He says putting his arm around me
We start walking towards the back
"Good" I say
"Well that's good" he says
A few minutes of walking and talking we stopped at the lights and green screens
"So w-" I say before I get cut off
Jimmy put his hand on my jaw and titled my head up
He was about to come in for a kiss but I backed up
"Oh.. uh sorry" he says
I stare at him and take another step back
I nod and turn away from him
"Il meet you at the filming area" I say
"Ok" jimmy says
I start walking
Fuck.. I wanted to go in for a kiss..
But.. it's not right.. I have.. cara?
I dont know.. I'm so confused
Cara.. is just a bitch.. she- I dont know.. I dont even like her..
I think.. I'm gay or something..
Shit I dont know
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I'm sorry these are short chapters
I'm just rewording the old chapters and adding more words and actions<3 il post later on today also
