blue is for happy

chapter 4

all day the thought of telling Nate about me gnawed on my insides, he rarely left my side between classes but seemed as stuck in his own world as me. I saw him throw worried looks at me now and then I just smiled reassuringly.

even as stuck in my head as I was I was hyper aware of every touch every move he made around me, my poor heart hardly stopped banging against my rib cage every time our eyes met.

by lunch time I was exhausted emotionally from my thoughts all running through my head and every thing I was feeling at once, fear, happiness, sadness at thought of him running.

"are you okay?" I snapped out of my thoughts and looked down at my untouched lunch "yeah" I looked up at Jake smiling "I'm fine" he didn't believe me I could tell. I felt Nate's arm move around my waist my heart jump started Jake looked at me and smirked as if he could hear it.

I blushed and started picking at my food.

when gym came around I couldn't wait to run out my frustrations.

it was the same as yesterday groups of 7.

I was in a group with a few of the guys again. as soon as the whistle went I ran as fast as I could I pushed myself to the limit a raced past all the boys and finished way ahead.

I fell to the floor gasping for breath I heard the boys come up behind me "Wow Lex that was fast!" I heard Jake say.

he looked confused I gasped for breathe not having pushed myself that hard in a while.

I ran in my old school.

"IV never heard you mention your old school?" he look at me brow furrowed waiting for my response.

"because it's in the past." I said with finality a hardness to my voice.

he stood straight then looked confused by his own actions

"no problem lex c'mon let's get changed"

I walked to the changing rooms and got ready to leave.

same as yesterday Nate was waiting for me.

"hey there" I smiled nervously knowing what came next after I told him.

he smiled back a nervous look passing over his face Aswell. what did he have to be nervous about?

when we sat in his car I turned to face him

"we need to talk" cringing at the cliched line.

"sounds ominous" he tried to lighten the now serious mood.

when i didnt smile he nodded once

"i know somewhere we can go, no disturbances"

he began driving to our destination.

i can say goodbye to having friends now but i could handle that but i couldnt lie to Nate and the guys.

here we go then.

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