Learning how to love / Lokius

I don't wanna hurt you

I really like this one, I hope you do too :)

Its now been three days that no one has seen or heard from Loki. Mobius was really caught up in his work so he didn't have time to check on him. He's finally done with the case now though, so the first thing he wants to do now is check if Loki was alright. Usually the god would run around the agent all day, annoying the man with his enthusiasm yet making him happy at the same time.

Mobius has finally reached his destination. He opens the cell and what he saw would break anyones heart. Loki lies on his little bed, legs pulled to his chest and face directed to the wall. He slowly approaches the god, putting a hand on his leg.

"Hey Loki, are you okay?", he whispers as to not wanting to overwhelm Loki.

"Yes.", he lies, obviously.

"I can see you're not, whats going on?"

"I have told you already. I'm fine", Mobius knows he's not fine. Lokis voice is quite when he talks and everytime Mobius strokes the gods leg with his thumb the whole body underneath him shakes.

"Would you at least look at me when you don't want to tell me whats going on?" Loki slowly turns around looking at the agent. He looks really tired and tears are running down his cheeks.

"Oh Loki... please tell me what happened" Mobius looks sad now too. He cares so much for Loki and to see him like that just makes him want to cry aswell.

"I don't know if I'm in love with you. When I'm with you I feel the same as I feel with everyone else. Of course I am a bit more relaxed with you and I trust you more, were friends. But I don't feel anything else. And I know that I'm hurting you right now by telling you and I'm scared that I'll always hurt you if I never fall in love with you", he crys again and Mobius pulls him to his chest, pulling away he puts his hand on Loki's cheek.

"Look at me, Loki. I am going to be fine and you'll be too okay? Please stop worrying about me so much and forgetting yourself. I can accept your feelings, I'm a grown up man. But you won't make anything better when you beat yourself up for something that you can't control. Look at you. You're the most gorgeous creature I've ever seen. You are as beautiful in your frost giant form as you are in your human one. Don't hide in your cell all day, please", a shiver runs down Loki's spine as he looks into Mobius eyes. There is so much love, he looks like he genuinely cares, but he looks sad aswell. The agent wipes away one of the gods tears with his thumb, as he continues.

"You should focus on yourself for now. Forget about loving me, try not to worry about me so much and do that to yourself. Love yourself, worry about yourself, okay? That should always come first. I love you so much, Loki. And that won't change and it doesn't matter if you love me back for now. Just take my love, take the appreciation you get from all of us at the TVA, because you're one of our greatest agents and take the ability to be a new you. A healthier, better you. I will go home now, if you need me or even if you just don't want to be alone, then come over okay? But please stop beating yourself up."

"Okay. Thank you so much.", the god hugs the agent tight as another tear rolls down his face, but this time its a happy tear. He didn't even think someone could be so nice to him. He didn't even think he deserves it, yet here he is, hugging a man who loves him so much that he would even die for him.

*** one hour later *****

Mobius sits on his couch watching TV as he hears a knock on his door. He stands up and opens it to find Loki in a fresh pj and wet hair standing on the other side of it.

"Hey. So you said I should care for myself and back in Asgard, as a child, I loved sleep overs. We're not children anymore, but I thought it could be fun?", Loki says, growing uncertain about the idea that seemed so great just five minutes ago.

"Yes, of course. I loved sleep overs too", Mobius smiles at the god before signaling him to come in. Loki sits down on the couch as Mobius makes his way to the kitchen where he takes two bowls, he fills one with chips and the other with cookies. "What do you wanna drink?", he asks Loki as he sets the bowls down on the living room table.

"A water will be fine", Loki answers as he leans back on the couch, his body shivering a bit.
"Do you want a blanket aswell?" the god nods and then the agent is already on its way back to the kitchen. He gets water for the both of them and two blankets from his bedroom. He puts one of the blankets around Loki, then sits next to him while cuddling into his own blanket.

"What do you wanna watch?"

"Could we watch Night at the museum? Its my comfort movie. I really love jedediah, he's funny."
Mobius smiles to himself as he puts on the movie. He's seen it before, he's in it. Since the time keepers came out to be a lie, everyone got their memories back. If they wanted to go back to their familys then their copies got deleted and they were free to go to their rightful place. As Mobius got his memories back, he now knows that his name isn't really Mobius, but Owen. And his copy on earth is a actor. He diced to keep the name Mobius, as he was already used to it.

"I'm jedediah, well my copy is"

"I know. Thats why he is so comforting for me. He reminds me of you" Loki smiles at him before he turns his attention back to the movie. They laughed at jedediah and octavius, they also couldn't contain their laughter when dexter peed on Larry. It was a really good evening and both of them loved it. After that they watched Crimson peak.

"Is that a Variant of me?", the God asks.

"Could be, he looks a lot like you", the agent answers while inspecting Thomas. He indeed looks exactly like Loki. He sounds like him aswell. He makes a mental note that he will check what the actors name is and study his files. After they finished watching crimson peak, which is a really good movie, they went to bed. it was 10pm by now and as they both had to work tomorrow, they decided that they didn't want to stay up too long.

"Is it okay for you if we sleep in one bed? Or should I take the couch."

"No, we can share a bed. Its no problem for me", Loki says as he already walks towards the bedroom. He just climbs in with Mobius following right after. They both got their blankets with them. As they're finally snuggled in, Mobius turns of the light.

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Mobius wakes up to soft whimpering. He turns on the light before turning around. He sits up, leaning slightly over the crying god next to him.

"Loki? Did you have a Nightmare?"

"Yes" Loki sobs, turning to look at Mobius. The agent looks at him with pity in his eyes, wiping away the tears.

"You're with me. Everythings okay." He smiles at the god. Mobius turns the light off again, then lies on his back before pulling Loki on his chest. Loki immediately shifts closer to the agent, holding on to his shirt. He ones again dreamed about Thanos, how he killed Thor and every Asgardian and all of it was Lokis fault. He's glad to have Mobius, because being cuddled against his chest gives him this weird feeling in his belly and he feels really comfortable. As Mobius puts a hand in his hair, carefully caressing it, Loki falls asleep faster than he ever did before.