Hey guys I'm just gotten sick maybe two weeks ago. To where it's been mentally taxing me to where I'm more aggravated and depressed. Also this might be a long update about what's fully going on. So try to stay with me on this long health update.
And that is thanks to how many medication I'm kriffing taking. To where I gotten this illness called serotonin syndrome. Also I now have my appointment today at five p.m. But not tomorrow. Thank the gods. And I'm going ask the woman psychiatry Assistant if she gotten approval from my psychiatry specialist for prescribing me two drugs. Also she can't prescribe drugs without approval from the main doctor. Or in this case the specialist.
But I'm sort of getting back to the mood I was in this morning. And that mood made me more shaky, faster heart rate, a bit of frailness, and a lot of restlessness. I also am getting a bit like that again at the moment as well. So I'm restless and anxious a bit. Another thing faster heart rate is a symptom of serotonin syndrome. So I'm dealing with my pulse being a bit fast. Also this feels more worst than taking an ADD medication called Adderall. Which made the inside of my head loud. Even when it was quiet in the classroom. Since I was a junior in HS at the time. I also dealt with my face being very warm. But not feverish warm during that school year. Also this feels worst than that. Because I'm still very tired during the day. Even after getting a full night's rest without waking up during it. And I hope this will end soon. Also a person in the gaming group I am in. Is currently a LPC/ Mental and addiction counselor who said I'm extremely over medicated. And even my own cousin related by bond and her
parents known that for a couple years. But didn't say anything. Since it wasn't there place to say anything about it. So mentally I'm still thinking. "Why haven't you guys said anything about it, if you known, even if it's not your place to say anything, since it would have prevented this syndrome from ever happening in the first place." So I'm a bit agitated about that. But in a way they're right. But I'm not very agitated with this. Since I see why they didn't saying anything about it. Since they had no place to say something about it. And in a way. I knew I had to face something like this sooner or later with all the medications I take. For my mental health and for hand tremor and the iron definecy I have. But if the psychiatry Assistant didn't get approval. Me or my parents might but idk for sure. Sue them for malpractice. But if she did. I'll try to advocate for myself about how much medication I take. So it could happen either way. Also I've been listening to rock music. Since somehow it's calming me down. Unlike the classical music of Beethoven and Mozart. And this is the song I'm listening to currently on loop.
It's also a very encouraging song in it's own little way. But other than that. I'm hoping she'll listen to what I have to say about this problem. So wish me luck and keep me in your thought or your prayers.
