Superstar

Chapter 10 - Make Up

Chapter 10

Harry drove me home and I finally stopped crying but my eyes burned. I wasn't sure what was going to happen because he drove my car and his was at Andy's. I told him directions to my house and looked out the window the whole time not talking. He didn't say a word either. He pulled into my driveway and turned the car off. We sat there in silence before I tried to open the door. Harry grabbed my hand and I turned to look at him.

"Don't go," he said. I looked into his green eyes. They were beautiful. I never really realized how pretty they were. "Can we talk Lucy? I want to know what made you upset and why did it have to do with Liam?"

"Harry, I don't wanna talk about it. It was a stupid mistake on my part and I shouldn't get any sympathy." I pushed his hand back and got out of my car and walked towards my house. Harry got out and blocked my way. I stood in front of him and stared at him.

"Harry," I said. He shook his head.

"I can't let you go Lucy. Seeing you hurt hurts me." I sighed. Not again Harry. He really liked me and I didn't want him to. I wanted to be with Liam and I couldn't just settle for Harry. I cant make him my rebound.

"Harry. Liam and I have been friends since we were 8. He was the world to me. I've always had a crush on him. And I guess it turned into love..." I said not meeting Harry's eyes.

"What are you saying?" he said.

"I love him Harry. I told him I loved him and he didn't want me, at all. That's why I was crying. Because the guy I loved with all my being, doesn't love me." I didn't want to cry anymore. I looked at Harry and he looked angry, almost pissed. I grabbed his hand and he pulled back.

"What's wrong Harry?" I asked.

"Well, I know how you feel. Loving someone and them not loving you back." I wanted to slap him. He was comparing our "relationship" to Liam and I's. it didn't work that way.

"No Harry. Liam and I were best friends for ages. You and I just met. You can't love me," I said looking fircely into his eyes. He stared into mine looking hurt.

"Well I believe in love at first sight, Lucy." I shook my head.

"You better leave," I said looking away. He sighed. Harry started walking down the road. I didn't want to make him walk but I didn't care anymore. I walked to my front porch and watched him walk away until I couldn't see him anymore.

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I stood in the shower days later, still thinking about Liam and how horrible I was to Harry. I knew he liked me. I mean it was obvious. But I hurt him. And I barely knew him. I knew he was planning on staying with Liam but I didn't know if he was there. Or how they both would react with each other.

I felt guilty and sad and pathetic and low and lonely all at the same time. Which is the worst thing ever. I played sad music all day. My mom didn't care. She acted as though she knew this would happen. And she did. She did. She was right. This whole time. And I didn't listen because I wanted to believe in happy ever after. I thought it could be real. But it wasn't. And wasn't going to be because love was crap. I convinced myself that love was a joke. Just a concept to get two people to reproduce. And you don't even need to love someone these days to reproduce.

I stepped out of the shower and didn't know of there was water in my face or if they were tears. I changed into a plain sweater and leggings. I wrapped my hair in a towel. I called off work saying I was quite sick. I lied to Alli telling her I had the flu. I couldn't face the world.

I was laying under the covers with my head phones on when someone shook my leg. I jumped and pulled the covers back. Harry was standing there looking miserable. His green eyes filled with sadness. I took my headphones off and sat up on my bed,

"Harry," I said almost in a whisper. "I'm terrible. I shouldn't be allowed to interact with people. All I do is hurt them and get hurt by them." He cracked a smile.

"I'm sorry. I bugged you about Liam and said I loved you when I wasn't being rational. I thought you liked me back. Liam and you were none of my business and I was out of line. Lucy, I was upset. Upset that you didn't like me the way I liked you," he said all this while keeping eye contact. I sighed.

"Love is stupid." I got up from my bed and stood in front of Harry.

"No it's not. Love is stupid when the person you love doesn't love you or when you break up with someone you adore," he said.

"It applies then. Liam doesn't love me. No one does, not even my own mother," I said.

"Don't say that! Your family loves you. And so do I." I looked intensely at him when he said that. His eyes were wide and his lips trembling. He grabbed my hand. I pushed it away.

"Harry. You don't understand. My whole life has been Liam. Everything about him. I cant just give him up. I can't move on. He broke my heart. The one I thought would mende it. Broke it. I can't just love you Harry. You're great. But I'm not ready for this... I can't shake Liam away," I said sadly and coldly.

"Well I'm never going to stop trying I hope you know that," he said. I looked down and he stepped closer. He kissed my forehead lightly and walked out. I didn't even stop him from kissing me. I didn't want to. Here he was, a world famous artist, trying to get me to love him, why me?

My phone went off and it was a text from Liam.

From: Liam

I miss you Lucy. Please. Lets start over. I was being dumb and drunk

I sighed. Why was he so nice? It wasn't always a good thing. He had to apologize for everything.

To: Liam

You made yourself clear you didn't want me

From: Liam

No, Lucy. Please come over please

I stared at my phone. I didn't want to go over. But it was Liam. And I was a sucker for those brown eyes and his puppy dog face. I put my phone in my pocket and asked downstairs. No one was home so I just left.

I knocked on Liam's front door. He answered. He looked terrible.

"Lucy," he said . He walked toward me and shut the door. He led me to the bench on the porch and sat me down.

"Just listen okay. I need to tell you something. Lucy I like you. You're an amazing person. But I can't just drop all things Danielle and date you. I mean I'd love to date you." My body shivered and tensed up. "I just need time to get over her okay? Then we can try? Please Lucy, you're a really good friend and my parents love you. So do the lads."

"Some more than others," I whispered to myself. "I guess so."

"Friends?" He asked. He ,are his eyes wide and I couldn't resist. I smiled and shook my head. "Thank God because these past days were hard."

He smiled and we went inside and talked to his parents for awhile.

Wow, we were friends. I thought we kind of already were. But every time I looked at him Harry's face always shone through. I didn't want to pick. I've always wanted Liam. He was perfect. But Harry wanted me. No ands, ifs, or buts about it.