A pill a day keeps the depression away..
Crap no that's not right
A pill a day makes you want to live just one more day...
Still wrong..
a pill a day makes everyone you know and love start calling you not normal..
The chemicals scream for balance in my head
The crumbling reality and never ending doubt brings me to my knees daily
Being dizzy at the thought of facing people
Or remembering the failed relationships and wrong words you've said and realizing you can't go another day.
Missing Someone so terribly that crying would never end
Hearing screaming and thinking it for you
Needing 24/7 reassurance and love
Picking at your finger till it bleeds because the physical pain replaces the throbbing pain of your heart.
I hate it. I hate that tiny pill that thrusts me into this pool of "mentally ill"
I hate the picking and worrying and the anxiousness and the sadness
I hate myself most days
Hate that someone who was suppose to love me pushed me to hatred and shattering anxiety
Mentally ill... unstable.. vulnerable
Those pills save me daily.
Guides me to sweet silence for 8 hours
Deafens the thoughts .
And for those few hours... Nadia peaks through again ..
so maybe normal will never be me .. but I'm here
And I will settle for that
Mentally.... Alive and loved ❤️💕
