what happened to us?

♡ 25 ♡

Trigger Warning: SUICIDE and SELF HARM.

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Cleo changed. I don't know what I should feel about it.

I get worried about her not eating properly. Hindi na rin siya nakakatulog nang maayos. I know she's a diligent night owl who would review for the rest of the night but she's going overboard with it.

Ang dami niyang trabaho sa council. Bukod sa pag-aaral, isa pang ginagawa niya buong maghapon sa school ay pago-organize at pag-attend ng mga meeting.

They say we should be happy for change but I don't know what to feel about this. Especially knowing that the reason she changed is because she's still blaming herself for what is happening to her.

It's not her fault. But she doesn't think that way.

Nagbago din ang tingin ng mga tao sa kaniya. Its doesn't matter to me pero alam kong lagi niyang pinapahalagahan ang image niya.

I hate it when people would look at her with pity, disgust, anger or any negative emotion. What I hate more is when people look at her as if they want to devour her. I've seen it a couple of times, people are touching her unnecessarily. Nakakainis na wala akong magawa kaya as much as possible, gusto kong laging nasa tabi ko siya.

People really think they can do whatever they want with her just because she took that kind of picture. They took it as an invitation.

This is why I'm never gonna forgive those people who put her in this situation. Von, isama na yung best friend niyang si Charmaine. And of course, Maureen.

I didn't hold back and threw another punch on this guy's face with my left hand. Gotta protect my dominant hand because I can't paint without it.

"Keanu, was it?" I asked, pulling his face closer by his collar. He looked at me scared with his bloodied nose and wounded lips. "Just go fuck your girlfriend."

I gave him another punch before throwing him to the wall of the bathroom stall. Bago ako lumabas ay kumuha ako ng tissue para punasan ang dugo niya sa kamay ko. Binato ko na din sa mukha niya yung gamit na tissue pagkatapos ko.

"Are you done?" Hero asked when I exited the bathroom stall.

Tumango ako at tinungo ang lababo para maghugas ng kamay. Sumunod siyang pumasok. I heard clicks and shutters from his phone and some words of threat before he left the guy.

"Tara na," he said, looking at his phone as we both left the bathroom.

I can't mess with this guy. He's the one who called me here asking me if I want to beat that guy up. I was immediately on my way, of course, especially because I was on edge since Xavier told us about what happened after hearing about it in the dean's office and some stories his brother told him.