words you'll never hear, words you'll never feel | sooshu

chapter three

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Redolence.

Does it ever drive you nuts that when you think or see something, it always reminded you of something or someone?

Like when you see the stars, they reminded you of your lover's eyes, or whenever you see the sun, it reminded you of how hot your lover is? Just kidding, unless..

Kidding's aside, this redolent state of ours might give us good or bad effects. You'll already know the answer to mine because my world's pitched black, so negative.

One thing that has become my habit is to unconsciously connect things to my beloved, Seo Soojin and eventually hurt myself.

Like literally everything.

Sighing in distress, I looked at the big windows of my office, noticing how gray Seoul is today. Every single day seemed to be a whirlpool of clouded emotions, adding the fact that it's raining today. Most of the people walking around and holding umbrellas to protect themselves from the rain, when I couldn't even protect myself to the thunderous emotions ranging from within, despite the roof above my head.

I sighed for the nth time again, emptying the contents of my hot chocolate. Grabbing my phone, I saw that it's just two in the afternoon and I have no meetings until five.

Oh shoot, my presentation.

I knew that I can't rehearse my presentation now because I'm not in the regime of concentration. Instead, I began to sketch some drawings on my blank notepad.

Light strokes matched with tears falling onto the paper, I mindlessly sketched some butterflies and a cherry. It turned out good but my emotions turned out worse than I thought.

I began sobbing until my secretary knocked on my door. "Ms. Yeh, is everything alright?"

"Yes," I quickly fixed my posture and wiped the tears off of my eyes as if nothing happened. "I'm okay, Tzu. Nothing happened. Everything's fine."

'You're a terrible liar, Yeh Shuhua.' I spoke to myself and internally slapped my face.

"Can I come in?" Chou Tzuyu's warm voice rang again and I shouted back, agreeing to her question.

"Ms. Yeh, despite us working together for about five years now and you being my boss, I didn't expect the sudden change of mood you're having nowadays. With no offense and stated with respect." Tzuyu stated as she took a seat in front of me.

I analyzed her facial expressions and she's pretty much worried. For five years, we've known each other's body languages and stood side by side against the waves of problems in this business.

"I'm very much aware of my position in this company but I really want to reach out to you as a friend." Tzuyu offered a smile, which I gladly reciprocated.

"I appreciate your words and support, Tzu. I really do. Thank you." I smiled and squeezed her hand.

"I know you recently had lunch earlier but as a friend, can we just walk around to empty your thoughts? You have a presentation later and it's probably a big one since the investors traveled all the way to South Korea for you. You shouldn't be distracted later, so let's go?"

"Tzuyu, you basically have a stack of papers on your desk," I frankly said and laughed. "And you're asking me out to take a walk at this time?"

She nodded. "Paper works will always be paper works, I don't mind the workload. It's part of my job. But, I just really want the best for you too, Ms. Yeh. You're distracted nowadays."