Strangers

C-1 ~ The Letter.

                  


You hurt me when you ignored the plea behind every 'It's okay'. You chose not to see how much I was hurting from the inside.

You hurt me when you stopped picking up my calls and replying to my messages. I thought we were always going to be there for each other, but alas, here we are

You hurt me when you made me feel like I didn't matter to you. Every time I tried talking to you, you shut me out. You manipulated me into thinking that it was right of you to treat me the way you did because I thought you had other priorities.

You hurt me when you made me feel almost invisible to you, like I wasn't your best friend anymore, but someone you once knew. You hurt me when you turned us into strangers.

You hurt me when you chose someone else over us, I was happy for you, for us, you know? Little did I know, once someone else knocked on your heart, you'd close our door.

Even now, sometimes all I think about is you. I've to smile and laugh when my parents ask about you, because little do they know, you've already forgotten me, and moved on, and it'll shatter them, like it did me, if I ever told them of this.

In the midst of the crowds, I still search for you, those glassy black eyes, which look as warm as the water on the horizon during a sunset. I still search to see if you still wear the ring I gave you. I still try to smell your shampoo amidst hundreds of people. Why you ask? You're a nineties floor view. The prettiest sight there is!

Maybe it's the way you say my name, with such precarious intent and a dash of that naughtiness I always adored, that made me fall head over heels for you and I've heard of a love, that comes once in a lifetime, I was pretty sure that you were that love of mine, when you were looking at me, I'd never felt so alive and free, I'd never felt so happy and elated.

At this point, I should be over all the butterflies, but every time I see you on the news, I somehow feel brighter and more cheerful. I thought we were in love, my bad. You moved on like it was nothing, like I was nothing. I pretend I'm happy for you when you find some dude to take home, but I won't deny that I wanted to strangle the life out of him.  Don't know what's come over you, It seems like yesterday when you told me forever, we'd face it together, but now it just feels like a lie. 

What a plot twist you were, the perfect character development plot. You made me realize who I was always meant to be and what I was always meant to do. I'm trying to move on, but the feelings are still strong. 

I just sit in my room with the memories of you while the moonlight shines in and I kill the lights, calling it a day but do you ever wonder?  What a mess you've made of my sleep schedule? I barely get shuteye these days, usually we'd be sleeping by now, but maybe it's too late to ask you to come back, to ask you to stay and sleep on it for one more day, to ask you not to walk away. 

Do you remember the beginning? I didn't even know your name, who'd have known that someday, years down the line, you'd be mine, although for just a brief period of time, leaving me without a dime. 

Thank you for absolutely everything, and nothing at all! You know where to find me!

Love, 
Ark~