A Dark Desire

•FOUR

I leaned against the island in the middle of my kitchen, staring at the drawing on the fridge. Jayden once asked me where his dad was, what was I supposed to say to him? "Oh! I don't know, he disappeared somewhere."

That sounded horrible, I couldn't say that to my four year old. But I am scared, scared that when he's older, much older, Him and Aaliyah will both ask again, where is my dad? I grabbed a stool and sat on it, running both hands through my hair.

I hated how I was, I tend to overthink so much. It ends up affecting me and stresses me out. Where is he, why isn't here. I'm desperate to see him again, to see his black messy hair. I smiled softly at just remembering how messy it would be, but he pulled it off well so i didn't say anything.

I miss seeing those blue eyes that would suck me in, making me weak in the knees. Or his bright smile that would light up any room.

A tear rolled down my cheek, my chest hurt. Thinking about him, about us. I shook my head and reached for my laptop. I'm not going to think about him anymore, he's probably happily married with another girl with kids.

I let out a sigh and opened a word document. Stupid essays, gotta love them.

~flashback~

I laid on the couch, staring up at the ceiling. Not my couch, his couch. Oh god what am I doing here?! This is weird. But then again, why does he have glowing star stickers on his ceiling?

What if dad finds out I'm sleeping here? He's probably going to call me these horrible names more and kill me. Like actually kill me.

Dammit Athena, quit overthinking everything. I pulled the blanket up to my shoulders and closed my eyes. Trying to sleep. But I couldn't. I filled the pillow, switched positions yet I still can't sleep.

I sat up and rubbed my eyes, this is bad. School starts in six hours! I at least need six hours to sleep. My index finger rubbed my lip, remembering what happened a few hours ago.

I cant believe I kissed Jace, what the hell. He was cleaning my wounds. I felt butterflies in my stomach, there's no way I'm catching feelings for Jace. He's probably a player who will use me and eventually dump me.

Fuck me.

***

There were whispers around me. My eyes opened a little, seeing that the kitchen light was turned on. The whispers then turned into soft yells.

"What the fuck Jace?! What if they report her missing? They'll think we kidnapped her!"

"Dad, calm down please."

"I'm not going to calm down!!"

I slowly sat up, staring at the two men in front of me. The yells for quiet as they both looked at me. I glanced between the two, Jace's dad looked exactly like him. Just older. He had the same hair, but shorter, same eye color and everything. Expect Jace was in joggers and a plain t-shirt while his dad had a nice suit on.

His dad sighed before pinching the bridge of his nose. "I don't care what you do, just." he looked at me. "Don't get us in trouble please." With that, he grabbed his suitcase and walked out the door.

Jace smiled at me softly, sitting on the edge of the couch.

"I'm so sorry I got you in trouble Jace." His brows furrowed before he shook his head.

"No no, don't worry about that love, he doesn't really mind." I swung my legs over the couch and got up.

"I feel like a burden, your dad didn't look so happy." I grabbed the blanket on the couch and started folding it. Yes, he took me in for the night because he was just being nice. But i'm not staying here another night.